And in this pool of blood

As much as I dislike Bang Bang Tang, I have to say that Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang is quite funny albeit nonsensical. Great programme to pass my time.. Like now! Hahaha at least it's better than Wo Ai Hei Se Hui. No super act cute girls. And there's Fan Fan too!

There's this channel which keeps playing these two programmes repeatedly. LOL.

And and and they're playing Huan Huan Ai! Gosh. I keep wanting to watch although I've already watched it before! Mike He <33333 !








SEE! I TOLD YOU CABLE WILL MAKE ME DISAPPEAR FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD! LOL.

On another note, I should stop skipping lectures :\ But really too tired to wake up in the morning. Hahaha

School's getting more fun! I love teasing CK with his.... *cough* nick *cough* names like *cough COUGH COUGH* cat *COUGH*. LOL He's damn funny :D And and and of course hanging out with the usuals Audrey Huda Lijuan Adriel Brian!

Everyday is just filled with "Machiam Paham!" and Huda's "Ni Shi Xiao Wa Wa~" and the latest "Ting Ma Ma De Hua~"

FUN :D

PS. The link on the previous post actually brought more traffic to my blog :O Hahahha From like America and Australia! I think damn cool. LOL. But at the same time, scary to know that the web is really all around. Hahhaa Anyhoo, hello strangers!

Totally self-deluded

(I THINK) SHE SCARES THE SHIT OUT OF ME. (I THINK) SHE'S MAD. (I THINK) SHE'S OBVIOUSLY SELF-DELUDED.

http://theliesofdawn.blogspot.com/
http://theliesofdawn.blogspot.com/
http://theliesofdawn.blogspot.com/

Check this site out! (In my opinion) I am totally amazed at her level of psychoness! Seriously. (I think) Someone (should) send her to IMH!

Putting the words in brackets cos (In my opinion) I'm afraid she'll start sue-ing like a crazy bitch on the loose! I'm just a poor little teenager with no money to defend myself nor to go for some identity change if I have to run away! And no, (I think) I'll definitely NOT choose her face even if I have the money to do that. (I think) I'd rather disfigure myself than to look like a fake little plastic................ clone! What originality!

SHIT (I THINK) SHE IS SO........................ SCARY.

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I've been breaking and hurting my nails. Broke one and made the other bleed today. :\ All thanks to my laziness to not cut my nails.

Anyway, I need to do macroecons research and ob whatever shit and prepare comm skills presentation :O OMG! Ok ok, I better go do my research before Joey kills me.

Oh Oh, met up with hon today (: Missed talking to ya <3.

PS. TOMORROW, IS THE DAY WHEN MY EXISTENCE IN THE OUTSIDE WORLD WILL CEASE.


CABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


edit.

so long and goodbye.
For real. This time, for real.

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As snow falls on desert sky

MY SISTER APPLIED FOR CABLE TEEVEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D YAYNESS!

I think I'm gonna become a zai nu everyday stay at home and watch tv! OMG! Yay yay yay!



I kinda forgot what else I wanted to blog about. Hmm. Never mind, I'm gonna sleep sooooon! Shall stop playing neopets! LOL.

So long and goodnight

A lil ruffled in the morning but all's fine now. (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BRENT!
I'm really sorry I didn't go back in the end!!!!!

I was supposed to go back to KCP for Band's POP but! I freaking overslept lah. Was so tired I fell asleep when I got home then my mum decided to let me sleep (haha). I'm so sorry banders!

I must go back to KCP soon! I miss the cai fan and curry mian!! Hahaha

There's Comm Skills test tomorrow but I haven't got the motivation to start studying. Complacent! ):

Oh oh oh! There was a HUGE FLYING COCKROACH IN MY HOUSE JUST NOW I FREAKED OUT LIKE MAD! OMGGGGGGGGGG! Mummy the brave one attacked with the insecticide while Muffin barked like mad! (She has a thing for saving cockroaches, I don't know why! LOL)

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As the scenes keep running in my head, I can't help.. can't help but...

I really have to get out of this state.

Time does not heal

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Just downloaded a few English songs which I listened to in the past.

Demolition Lovers Helena I'm Not Okay Pieces Mr. Brightside Unholy Confessions.

Brings back so much memories. So so much. ):

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Exams are coming, soon :\ I need to start studying hard..........

Vallie Vallie, we mug mug together kay!!!! I miss the mugging camp site (hahahaha omg reminds me of o levels and promos laaaaa! Mclaurin's!!! LOL)

Dinnered at Century Square (or is it Tampines Mall? No lah, quite sure it's Century. What's up with two shopping centres anyway!!) today with Audrey Huda Chin Kiat Jing Zhe Brian! Talked a lot about the starting of school and first impressions and what-nots! Hahaha was pretty hilarious, really!

I'm glad I'm in such an awesome class with awesome people! (: So lucky to have met with such great classes throughout my life :D

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I can't stand myself, my stupidity.

It's taking too long, really. And recently those thoughts deep hidden resurfaced more often than usual. It's wearing me out cos it seems like it'll never be over till I do something about it. But what? What can I do?

cos ever since you left, i can't seem to look at another.

Exhausted

Yesterday I felt like a Sim with energy level red in colour.

All thanks to my being unable to sleep on Sunday night, tossing and turning in bed till 6.30am Monday morning. 6.30am wtf!

And Monday was a long day, with the killer accounting test at night. I fell asleep while watching the 10 o'clock Channel U show. ):

I still feel damn tired now. Gosh what's with this tired-ness.

Project deadlines are all coming at once, I'm too tired to do anything. I can't think of what to blog, I think I'm going to sleep already. Hahahha

PS. The XiaXue and Dawn thing is entertaining. Hahahahhaa I am definitely on Xiaxue's side. (I think that, I feel that, In my opinion,) The latter is just... so fake.

PPS. I want to shop. How! I need to buy shorts. I am quite tired of wearing skinnies to school when the weather is so hot! :\

PPPS. I WANT TO GO TAIWAN PLEASE OMG I MISS MY YA LUN SO MUCH, I MISS ALL OF EM SO MUCH. AND OMG TODAY XIAO GUI'S PERFORMANCE ON YU BAI TOTALLY OWNZ! HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

Oblivious

Annoyed over nothing. Must be PMS.

Accounts test tomorrow, Comm Skills mock test, CSA project deadline.

Still living, still living.

Seriously lah, I feel damn kljfglakjkgljasgjkldjf over some things which are so mediocre I feel like banging my head on the wall.

What for. What for when you can just ignore everything a live a happy oblivious life?

Gah. If you think I'm referring to what you're thinking, you're wrong.

But maybe you're right?

Aiyah, there's no point in this post as you can see. I just don't wish to see that disgusting poor molar of mine at the top of my blog.

I want to shop so badly

I NEED A JOB, SERIOUSLY.

Goodbye my molar, goodbye

Its ffffffuuuuuccccckkkkkkiiiiinnnnngggggggg paaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn okay!! ): Sorry to scare you all with such a pic at the start of my entry.

Seriously I don't know if the dentist did the right thing by extracting my healthy but slanted molar. Solved the biting problem but how do I eat next time? With a hole behind!

It happened too fast, at first he said it was my wisdom tooth. After injecting the anaesthesia he said, oh it's actually your molar, and pulled it out.

))))))))))))))): BLEED A LOT. FOR LIKE 2 HOURS OMG.

Okay bye, I'm damn tired.

The night's not young

Look at the time, I've just finish up Comm Skills.


Now I know how Fel felt last year! And gawd, I miss my PW group a lot. Did a mini presentation on Ray Kroc the last CS lesson and it brought back so much memories.

Times when we just got started, felt so new to everyone.

Come to think of it, Ray Kroc brought all of us together! Hahaha

The very few meetings that were held cos Fel was so efficient in her work. Haha!

Meetings at McDonald's, to get the feel of Ray Kroc? Haha

Then practising for OP, the recording of the video, going to Xesman house and ended up playing with his piano and dogs instead of rehearsing.


I miss those times.. As much as I like Poly life so much more, I miss 121 07 a lot. ):


Jia you for A's!! Prelims are coming!! (:
**

I swear my gum is so fucking pain I can just die. My molars keep biting onto the back of my lower gum so I can't bite properly, can't eat properly and it is in constant pain all the way.

Which probably explains my foul mood.



_l_ Fuck.


K bye, gonna sleep.

We don't realise

Lately I can't help but feel that everyone's just so busy with their boyfriends. Like everything is just about boyfriends boyfriends, and boyfriends. Bathe eat sleep boyfriends.

I don't knowwwwwwwwwwwww. Not targetted at anyone in particular, but I just feel that way. Strange, ain't it? Whenever you're with someone you don't realise how you're missing out on other stuffs.

It's only when you are without, then you'll realise. How you've neglected everyone else.

I've learnt. I've learnt.

Oh well, maybe it's just because I'm not attached? Call me sour grapes or whatever, but it's annoying me. Not a lot, but it bugs me quite a bit.

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Okay, this is insane, I've been playing non stop mahjong from Friday night till just now. Lost like a total of $28 buckerooos when I'm already so freaking broke. ): But never mind! It's fun!

From Friday night played till 5am Sat morning, slept, woke up at 3pm, continued all the way to 7am this morning, slept, woke up at 2pm and finally end just now at 8pm.

MAHJONG CAMP! Hahahahaha

Okay, I really should stop procrastinating if I wanna do well for my first year!

Comm Skills project due Wednesday
Econs, OB project due... soon
Accounts test next Monday
Comm Skills test 26 July.

Hello hello dine, please start working and stop playing neopets and mahjong like no one's business. You do not want your group to fail because of you.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay bye.

Hey self, some things aren't worth remembering

Today I woke up a little later than usual. Then I went to brush teeth, bathe change, make milo, dry my hair, drink milo, pack my lappy and bag then left home. Reached the bus stop then the bus came. I fell asleep all the way to school. Then I late already, so I faster walk. Then Audrey called me cos she was behind me. Then went in for lecture. Very tired cos I yesterday watch Yu Bai until very late. Want to sleep but Aaron keep disturbing (hurr hurr idiot. LOL) Then lecture over, went Mensa 2 for Western. Then went library to do Comm Skills but no mood cos very tired and lazy. Then left school with Hudaaaa. Then take bus, buy bubble tea, reach home. Play Neopets (my Xweetok rocks) then sleep until 10pm. Woke up watch the Plastic Surgery show then mummy came back with dinner. Then now blogging cos I just now sleep too much can't sleep.

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BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. Okay, I'm just trying to be annoying but I think only Huda can get the joke. LOL. Crap how do you summarise what you do everyday! I feel damn bo liao while typing the above lah!

Anywayyyyyy, I had a few things to blog about but can't really remember. I've been having this !!!!!!!!!!!! back pain for the past few weeks? Got so bad yesterday my mummy forced me to take painkillers. ): I don't know why lah.....

I feel like I've a lot of things left undone but I can't seem to have the motivation to do anything. Project deadlines up next week but I'm still chilling out (I think cos Joey is in my group oh please He's the man man! LOL. ) Comm Skills report too, but it's like a watered down version of PW and my group is awesome so I'm pretty much chilled about it too.

Gosh, I'm being too complacent!!!! Ah whatever. Shall only start worry when.... I should.

IhavesomanythingsIwishtoaccomplish.

Keyboard, drums, guitar, flute, dance. I doubt I'll be able to accomplish any. I wanna get my tragus pierced and my tongue pierced and my navel pierced. Yes again for the tragus and navel.

Howwwwww do I convince my mummy.

"Hey mummy, rest assured I won't become an ah lian okay I promise cross my heart! It's just piercings and I like them a lot. I will not pierce anywhere on my face except for my tongue it's not like anyone can see unless I talk. Then maybe in front of grandma and grandpa and dad I will become the silent kid. Pleaaaasssssssssssseeeee."

Aiyah, say only. But I will pierce my tragus, I think. Is that mass class piercing still on! Hahahahaha

Okay bye, I'm feeling so hyper now. Gosh shouldn't have slept so much just now!!!

That distant look is in your eyes

I don't know why my classmates are very keen on pairing me up with guys from class. I think because they scared I 嫁不出去. Lol. Sorry ah, but lao niang here only got Ya Lun in my <3. Hahaha

My current favourite song.



萧敬腾 原谅我

请不要分了以後　
还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久　已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多　
话哽在喉咙
你的笑你的快乐　
或许我爱太多 想太多
我能感受　他比我适合

爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　
比你先说分手

请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我
请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
你的寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

请不要分了以後　
还记得亲吻过的承诺
你的永久　已不属於我
默默低头　那时我很多　
话哽在喉咙
你的笑 你的快乐　
或许我爱太多 想太多
我能感受　他比我适合

爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　
比你先说分手

请原谅我　原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口　
好让你离开我

请原谅我　好想自私将你占有
你的寂寞就给我承受
换你过更好的生活

爱过 恨过 哭过 也笑过
亲吻过你的脆弱
其实我比谁都要懦弱

原谅我　必须假装爱错
别让时间逗留　我怕说不出口
原谅我　没有解释太多　
心痛别无所求　彻底忘了我

爱原来要舍得
我爱过　我才懂

Very sad. Sad. Sad. Sad.

)))):

Against All Odds

How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
’Cause we’ve shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
Oh there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
’Cause there’s just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds
And that’s what I’ve got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There’s so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
’Cause there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
’Cause there’s just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that’s what I’ve got to face

Take a good look at me now
’Cause l’ll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That’s the chance I’ve got to take

Take a look at me now

***

Celebrated Grandpa's birthday today!! ((: He was so happy, which made me really happy too! :D

Afterwhich headed to PS to look for bestfriend Cherlyn and the rest! Royston finally bought his guitar (our birthday present for him, which was owed since umm 2 May? LOL)!

I wanna learn a new instrument. :\ I want to learn a lot of things. Pfft. But I neither have the money nor the time. Sucks.

Anyway, saw Keefe and the whole lot of the other guys who always hang out together! Haha what a coincidence :D

After that I went to my aunt's house, had a pretty boring time spent there but got to watch the Taiwan Golden Melody Awards! (:

Ciao! Tomorrow must chiong Comm Skills!!!

Gosh why is this song playing right now ))))))))))))): It never fails.... never fails to..
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外

Devil & Angel

This (Thursday) morning I lay on my bed after my alarm clock rang. I could hear the angel and devil arguing in my head.

"Wake up, NOW. Get ready for lecture at 9am" The angel said.
Devil: "What for, go back to sleep!"
Angel: "It'll only last 2 hours! Go get ready!"
Devil: "Precisely! TWO HOURS! What for? Get your beauty sleep!"
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Of cos, the devil won.

So yes, slept my day away till 3pm. Woke up, went to Coolzone to get Cherlyn's Gui Nu Chuan! Then came back home and played Ming Xing San Que Yi all the way till dinner.

Taught my mummy how to play Ming Xing San Que Yi (It's a mahjong game)! Damn funny!! Hahahaha cos she doesn't know how to use the com at all. LOL!

My mummy so cute. :D

***
I think I gave up on trying to understand myself, my own emotions.

I think he screwed up whatever understanding that's left of me.

喜欢就是喜欢
不喜欢就是不喜欢
不是应该就这样简单的吗

But no, doesn't seem like it.

It's been too long and I'm still stuck in this circle I've been trapped in.

_l_

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Ciao, before the angel and devil can have a reason to start arguing tomorrow.

PS. YA LUN IS NOT GAY LAHHHHHHHHHHHHH>
>.<

PFFT.

Tell me why

So I drank (officially; legally) for the first time yesterday at this KTV Pub with my sis, her boyfriend, and his friend.

I didn't want to, cos I really think alcohol is damn bitter. But my sis was like, "You must, cos you're 18 and it's the first time you're going to a pub."

So I did lah, Chivas with (loads of) green tea/ coke. LOL. Quite okay, and I was still sober! :D Cos I think I drank more coke/green tea instead of the Chivas. Hahahaha my sis stupid boyfriend keep wanting to make me drink till I puke but my sis drank for me instead. Hahahha

Quite fun, I should say.

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I'm damn upset. Got news say Ya Lun is gay. HE IS SO NOT. HMPH.

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Ok I'm gonna go play mahjong.

why, why do I feel that tinge of...... oh shutup.