Who knows

Tough to stay in love huh.

So now it's just one step at a time..

I hate that mid-sem tests are coming and the fact that I haven't been to lectures ever since week 2 or something. I've been too slack, and I hate myself for that.

I can foresee the fall in GPA already... ): Talk about getting into Uni, BAH.

I don't know what's wrong with me.. All this laziness and total reluctance for school. Dreading school like f seriously and I haven't been like that since JC.





GAH. Anyway, Twilight sucks. I'm on Team Jacob, though. Edward's too sparkly for me. HAHAHAHA I seriously can't stand the sparkling. It's just way too gay.

Case 39 was so-so. Just caught it just now.. Pretty okay for a movie just to pass time.

Blah, blah blah.


CAN'T WAIT FOR THE HOLIDAYS.

It's getting harder

i feel like i've lost something important......
i've been searching but in vain....


i....... am losing myself.

what was once me.. what I'd been...



it's stifling, suffocating.


what's right, what's wrong
what I want, what I'm looking



i.............. am i happy, now?

First

I gave my first time........................................... clubbing to Eugene. HAHAHAHA. Cos it's his birthday.

Just came back from Rebel/Zirca. Tired to the max, plus my toes got stomped on by a million people. ):

It was fun :D Shall blog more tomorrow or whenever I have the feel again..

Gonna sleep soon, TA!

Little stars shining bright

This is (L). All of us came, I was so happy. I finally felt home. Finally felt right. God knows how much I miss being around people who know me.

I've been thinking this whole time.. Sometimes I go to school and come home, and realise I spoke less than 10 sentences the whole day? I feel like I've not been myself.. The self I used to be back in Secondary school days, JC days, even just last year.............

Maybe I'm not trying hard enough to fit in.. Maybe.. maybe I'm just not.. not sociable.. not friendly enough for school.



Sigh. ):

Eleventh

My mummy flew off to Guangzhou for holiday yesterday.. She'll only be coming back on Wednesday. ): The house is so quiet and I'm left alone cos my sis went to chiong. ): It just shows how no life I am. Siiiiigh.

Anyway, happy 11th love. (: It's been great and I've finally learn to be contented. No more doubts and insecurities because I can never find someone who (l)s me like you do. (: (: Can you believe we're just a month away from being a year old? (: (: (: Ily.

Ok, pardon the mushy stuff, it's the 14th. LOL.

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I'm hungry. And look at the time! I'm resisting the urge to cook my yummy zow zow duck maggi mee. I think I'm putting on weight like crazy and Cow keeps saying my hips are fat. ): I don't feel like sleeping now....... So I can't sleep the hunger off, but I'll try!

I ate Mac for lunch, nasi padang for dinner, and oyster mee sua for supper at around 10 plus AND I AM STILL HUNGRY NOW! ): Fat pig.

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Oh oh, I caught 2012 and I think it's like..... boomz! LOL. No boring scenes at all, pretty much action all the way. Go watch it!

Ok shall end off with a GREAT NEWS!





MAWEWE IS COMING BACK ON SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! WE HAVEN'T SEEN HER IN MONTHS! FINALLYYYYYYYYYYY! :D :D :D

You sing the words but don't know what it means

Sometimes I wish I could be 15 forever
Other times I wish I could grow up fast

I wish the world isn't this complicated,
I wish life could be easier.
I wish I were living in the past, in centuries before........

In times when living was just simple and easy.
In times when I don't have to worry about work, school, money, and all the materialism.

I always feel that I'm not living my life to the fullest. But how can I, when I'm burdened with things like school and work, which are all neccessary for my future.

I'm suffocating under this pile of neccessities. ):

Sigh.




On a totally random note, I feel like going for hair extensions. Yay or nay?

Sunday nights and Monday mornings

I am so suay today. ): $50 mysteriously disappeared at work, and I had to compansate for it (Actually because I didn't know how to go about telling my boss). Still have no idea how it can disappear............................ Oh well, shall be more careful next time.

I went for Singapore Hit Awards on Friday and am so in love with Xiao Jing Teng now! Haahahhaha he's damn cute lah......... I can't believe he's born in 1987 lor! Like just 3 years older than me? LOL. S.H.E. was damn nice...... Hahahaha Ok I'm sounding like some deranged fanatic.

I'm losing the perseverance to save money for my license, after today's incident, and thinking about my phone bill, and expenses............................ Maybe I should just listen to my mum and sis and take my license after I graduate. Some things just can't be forced huh. Have to accept the fact that I ain't no rich kid. ):


I wish I were a rich kid.

Swimming through sick lullabies

I feel like I'm losing myself.






School at 9am tomorrow. Sucks much ): Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.....................

Did I mention my tragus piercing is gone? Closed. Poof. I'm damn sad. ): Apparently after 1 year plus, the hole will still close after not putting anything in for a few days. I'm sadgal90. ):

My sister is going Bali, and when she comes back, my mum is going Macau.


Why is it that everyone's going on a holiday but me? ):

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Why do some things still remain when left ignored

Why doesn't ignorance bring bliss

Why do people always want what they don't have

Why are people not contented with what they have

Why do I sound like a gay emo shite




Sigh.
My sister wants to go Taiwan to find Lan Zhen Long, because he is born in 1979 and a Pisces, and the fortune teller she went to told her her future husband will be one.

So I should follow her to find Ya Lun.

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Haha sorry for this mindless and awfully jumbled post.

My emotions exactly.


/edit. I had a sudden awakening. I can do so much better. It's so silly to feel 2006ish cos when i retold the story all I could think of was "Why was I such a dumb f."

Hahahahahahahha. (:

Date tomorrow with baby again?? :D