I want so much to be able to express myself freely at this blog without having to feel awkward and stuffs.
I can't. Simply because, I know there are people, not strangers, who reads this space, and I'm not comfortable with letting them know what really is happening in my life.
Can't blame them, I know. This is the Internet. -.- Really hate myself for asking to be linked back then, seriously. Shouldn't I have known that being myself, I do not like people whom I'm not close with know me, through my blog especially.
Last resort would be to make this one private, but that is just so............. :B Eurgh.
We'll see how it goes, see how it goes I guess.
Let's just say that I'm really happy with my life right now and there's nothing more I can ask for, seriously. And I guess, for the first time, this truly is bliss.
(:
Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Change
Updates........
1.Reunion dinner
Reunion dinner was awkward.
Sad to see my Ah Gong crying after shouting "Ah Ma, chi!" ):
Though my Ah Gong's maid tried to prepare the same dishes which my Ah Ma used to prepare, it was different. Greatly appreciated her effort though, of course.
One year. It brought so many changes, no.
Last reunion dinner, my Ah Gong was not ridden with stroke.
Last reunion dinner, my Ah Ma was still around.
): I miss my Ah Ma's smile and laughter. I miss my Ah Ma's cooking.
I miss my Ah Ma... a lot.
2. Schoolwork
I am buried under all the shit project work and I know, I only have myself to blame for all these last minute work.
1. Jap script. It's never ending, no! Translated yet we need to lengthen it despite having only three people in my group. Tell me, how to memorise those Jap sentences!!! I have no mood for this.
2. POM role-play script. Why are there so many scripts. -.- And need to get the slides done too. No mood for this either. Hurhur.
On the bright side, POM and Econs report done.
Chyeah.
3. CNY
Doesn't feel like it this year except for the gambling part. Which reminds me, I seriously am not cut out for gambling. Like previous years, I keep losing. But what to do! If I don't gamble I'll be bored to death lah! ):
Lady luck's just not on my side.
***
Some other ranting to do. This freaking mosquito (or mosquitoes??) have been giving me bites for the last like one week! Keeps making me wake up in the middle of the night cos of the itch.
ME NO LIKE. Annoying like shit I tell you.
>.<
***
Apart from everything above..................
I feel really blessed with what I have now. (:
PAY'S COMING SOOOOON! :D WOOHOO!
1.Reunion dinner
Reunion dinner was awkward.
Sad to see my Ah Gong crying after shouting "Ah Ma, chi!" ):
Though my Ah Gong's maid tried to prepare the same dishes which my Ah Ma used to prepare, it was different. Greatly appreciated her effort though, of course.
One year. It brought so many changes, no.
Last reunion dinner, my Ah Gong was not ridden with stroke.
Last reunion dinner, my Ah Ma was still around.
): I miss my Ah Ma's smile and laughter. I miss my Ah Ma's cooking.
I miss my Ah Ma... a lot.
2. Schoolwork
I am buried under all the shit project work and I know, I only have myself to blame for all these last minute work.
1. Jap script. It's never ending, no! Translated yet we need to lengthen it despite having only three people in my group. Tell me, how to memorise those Jap sentences!!! I have no mood for this.
2. POM role-play script. Why are there so many scripts. -.- And need to get the slides done too. No mood for this either. Hurhur.
On the bright side, POM and Econs report done.
Chyeah.
3. CNY
Doesn't feel like it this year except for the gambling part. Which reminds me, I seriously am not cut out for gambling. Like previous years, I keep losing. But what to do! If I don't gamble I'll be bored to death lah! ):
Lady luck's just not on my side.
***
Some other ranting to do. This freaking mosquito (or mosquitoes??) have been giving me bites for the last like one week! Keeps making me wake up in the middle of the night cos of the itch.
ME NO LIKE. Annoying like shit I tell you.
>.<
***
Apart from everything above..................
I feel really blessed with what I have now. (:
PAY'S COMING SOOOOON! :D WOOHOO!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Legs, breaking
Gah, busy busy busy day at work.
Happening thing 1:
I bumped into someone who looked like my part-time admin boss and recognise me but yet didn't seem like him. He attempted to give me a goodbye hug (?) which I politely refuse and walked away feeling very confused.
Cos he didn't seem like my that boss leh. Yet he somehow had a sense of familiarity. Oh well, if he is really my that boss then so sorry for being so hostile I wasn't really in a clear state of mind. If he isn't then, hello stranger why do you know me. LOL.
Happening thing 2:
I was counting money, getting ready to close then shop when I vaguely saw something fall from the gap between the shutters. I didn't really bother to see what it was cos I was, well, counting money.
And when I walked to it to see what it was.....................................................
IT WAS A FUCKING BABY RAT.
Sorry no pictures cos I was seriously traumatised.
1) It was near to the entrance so I couldn't pull the shutters down without going near it.
2) I was damn fucking scared that more will drop down.
I didn't dare to do anything to it except stare and think about how the heck can I close shop and go home.
Thank goodness this guy help me kick it aside. I know it is rather evil but it was dead I guess. Cos it didn't move since it fell. Hmm ok, now I'm feeling a tad upset. It's just a (dead) baby rat, right?
Right?
***
This year's CNY is so not CNY ):
No visiting, no mood, no gambling with relatives, no angbaos. Oh well, at least people can come to my house! Hahaha
And I still can gamble at home. Hahaha mahjongggggggggg!
Ok I'm a lil tired already. And I have work tomorrow. Seriously I donno what the heck my boss is thinking. Whoever shops on Chu Xi??? LOL.
Tata!
Happening thing 1:
I bumped into someone who looked like my part-time admin boss and recognise me but yet didn't seem like him. He attempted to give me a goodbye hug (?) which I politely refuse and walked away feeling very confused.
Cos he didn't seem like my that boss leh. Yet he somehow had a sense of familiarity. Oh well, if he is really my that boss then so sorry for being so hostile I wasn't really in a clear state of mind. If he isn't then, hello stranger why do you know me. LOL.
Happening thing 2:
I was counting money, getting ready to close then shop when I vaguely saw something fall from the gap between the shutters. I didn't really bother to see what it was cos I was, well, counting money.
And when I walked to it to see what it was.....................................................
IT WAS A FUCKING BABY RAT.
Sorry no pictures cos I was seriously traumatised.
1) It was near to the entrance so I couldn't pull the shutters down without going near it.
2) I was damn fucking scared that more will drop down.
I didn't dare to do anything to it except stare and think about how the heck can I close shop and go home.
Thank goodness this guy help me kick it aside. I know it is rather evil but it was dead I guess. Cos it didn't move since it fell. Hmm ok, now I'm feeling a tad upset. It's just a (dead) baby rat, right?
Right?
***
This year's CNY is so not CNY ):
No visiting, no mood, no gambling with relatives, no angbaos. Oh well, at least people can come to my house! Hahaha
And I still can gamble at home. Hahaha mahjongggggggggg!
Ok I'm a lil tired already. And I have work tomorrow. Seriously I donno what the heck my boss is thinking. Whoever shops on Chu Xi??? LOL.
Tata!
Monday, January 19, 2009
Cos I'm feeling like
... Crap.
Is the weather getting to me or what.
I hate feeling how I'm feeling now.
I hate feeling like such a pessimistic pain-in-the-ass.
I hate feeling like a paranoid freak who needs assurance every now and then.
I hate how I'm feeling like that despite being very contented and happy with my life now.
It scares me how much it scares me.
Try figuring that out.
I really need to stop thinking so much before it screws my life up.
Sorry for the rant, again. I just have another sudden bout of I-hate-myself-so-much.
Is the weather getting to me or what.
I hate feeling how I'm feeling now.
I hate feeling like such a pessimistic pain-in-the-ass.
I hate feeling like a paranoid freak who needs assurance every now and then.
I hate how I'm feeling like that despite being very contented and happy with my life now.
It scares me how much it scares me.
Try figuring that out.
I really need to stop thinking so much before it screws my life up.
Sorry for the rant, again. I just have another sudden bout of I-hate-myself-so-much.
飞轮海-寂寞暴走
这里的景色叫做曾经爱过
曾存在你的拥抱和温柔
撕开票根独自重游
票价是想念你的痛
你说做朋友并不是朋友
我们比路人还陌生得多
感情的废墟重建以後
谁会偶尔回来走走
我站在回忆的入口
蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够 你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的秘密花园中 你从没走
我说的爱你说的太自由
自由到彷佛我只是说说
未来的风景我没爱过
我只想念你的所有
我站在回忆的入口
蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够 你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的秘密花园中 你从没走
我的爱你 想你 都以极速向回忆暴冲
他们能看见的是虚伪的从容
我站在回忆的入口
蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛
让我无法说泪是因为吹风
我沿着命运的箭头
无奈向前走到下个人的怀中
爱你还没爱够 你却要我放手
谁懂在时间的秘密花园中 你从没走
***
Favourite song amongst my favourite in their thrid album.
Seriously rocks please!
But I hate how emo songs make me feel damn pessimistic about everything.
What if everything disappears one day? :\
Sunday, January 18, 2009
And when the stars are falling
I'm gonna be an annoying prick and make my next post an autoplay youtube video of FeiLunHai's new song wahahahahha.
The sky seemed extremely clear when I was walking back home just now. It's been a long time since I looked up into the night sky and saw the Orion. Nice, if only I could take a photo.
I feel like I hardly have time for myself. It's just school, projects, tests, work. And soon, exams, presentations, and shits like that. And I suddenly feel quite upset about it. ): Sucks much.
I HATE MY PHONE RIGHT NOW. I already exceeded my message limit by probably 938971735891738957 messages and it still refuses to deliver my messages. Fuck Nokia, seriously. Annoying piece of crap.
Ok I need to get myself out of this hypersensitive and easily upset mood.
CHEH.
***
I was thinking about this on my way home just now.
How do you tell a customer that she probably can't fit into the piece of clothing that she wants to buy?
"I don't think you can fit in that."
"Erm, that material is not very stretchable."
"You're too fat."
All seems so........... rude. Of course I'm kidding about the last one. Anyhoo, I just let them buy it if they don't wish to try on it. Hahaha
***
I feel like making my blog private but that's just so........ loserish. Maybe I should learn how to obliviate all of you to make you forget my blog address so that I can blog more about.......... things I want to blog about.
Ok merepek. Forgive me, I don't think I'm myself right now.
Bah, stats test tomorrow. And I haven't touched my book, AT ALL.
Ja mata!
The sky seemed extremely clear when I was walking back home just now. It's been a long time since I looked up into the night sky and saw the Orion. Nice, if only I could take a photo.
I feel like I hardly have time for myself. It's just school, projects, tests, work. And soon, exams, presentations, and shits like that. And I suddenly feel quite upset about it. ): Sucks much.
I HATE MY PHONE RIGHT NOW. I already exceeded my message limit by probably 938971735891738957 messages and it still refuses to deliver my messages. Fuck Nokia, seriously. Annoying piece of crap.
Ok I need to get myself out of this hypersensitive and easily upset mood.
CHEH.
***
I was thinking about this on my way home just now.
How do you tell a customer that she probably can't fit into the piece of clothing that she wants to buy?
"I don't think you can fit in that."
"Erm, that material is not very stretchable."
"You're too fat."
All seems so........... rude. Of course I'm kidding about the last one. Anyhoo, I just let them buy it if they don't wish to try on it. Hahaha
***
I feel like making my blog private but that's just so........ loserish. Maybe I should learn how to obliviate all of you to make you forget my blog address so that I can blog more about.......... things I want to blog about.
Ok merepek. Forgive me, I don't think I'm myself right now.
Bah, stats test tomorrow. And I haven't touched my book, AT ALL.
Ja mata!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Busy as a bumblebee
I know, I know! I've been neglecting this blog of mine.
The projects that have been mentioned in my previous previous post are still not done. In fact I don't think I've made any progress in any except Japanese.
Screw procrastination.
I NEED MORE TIME PLEASE.
The projects that have been mentioned in my previous previous post are still not done. In fact I don't think I've made any progress in any except Japanese.
Screw procrastination.
I NEED MORE TIME PLEASE.
Friday, January 09, 2009
Eurgh
Just an expression to show how disgusted I am by what I've been eating.
Sunday: Mac at 10 plus PM for dinner after work. (Read: FAT.)
Monday: Mac for dinner. Again. (Read: FAT. FAT.)
Wednesday: Mac at 10plus PM for dinner after work. AGAIN. (Read: FAT. FAT. FAT.)
Today: Mac for dinner. AGAAAAAAAIN. (Read: FAT x 10000000)
4 days of Mac in a week.
GEMOK LAH OK GEMOK LIKE DONNO WHAT. ):
And I have a sudden craving for KFC and twister fries.
*Bangs head against wall*
Sunday: Mac at 10 plus PM for dinner after work. (Read: FAT.)
Monday: Mac for dinner. Again. (Read: FAT. FAT.)
Wednesday: Mac at 10plus PM for dinner after work. AGAIN. (Read: FAT. FAT. FAT.)
Today: Mac for dinner. AGAAAAAAAIN. (Read: FAT x 10000000)
4 days of Mac in a week.
GEMOK LAH OK GEMOK LIKE DONNO WHAT. ):
And I have a sudden craving for KFC and twister fries.
*Bangs head against wall*
Monday, January 05, 2009
Projects, suck.
Okay suddenly feel very stressed by the amount of projects I have to get started on.
1. Jap script translation
2. Econs article analysis
3. Econs market analysis
4. Marketing
5. Principles of Management
Sucks much. Need to get Jap done rather urgently I've realised since I have work on Wednesday. Last minute work sucks but that's what I always get myself into. Woohoo, not.
I still can't believe it's 2009 already. Hahaha and how in like less than 2 months time it will be the end of my Year 1. :O
Ok I should gambatte instead of crapping here.
Tata!
***
I forgot to add I collected Fei Lun Hai's third album today and I'm damnnnnnnnn happppeeeeeee :D Omg shuai like donno what woohoo! :D And and and the songs are damn nice laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa <3<3<3
1. Jap script translation
2. Econs article analysis
3. Econs market analysis
4. Marketing
5. Principles of Management
Sucks much. Need to get Jap done rather urgently I've realised since I have work on Wednesday. Last minute work sucks but that's what I always get myself into. Woohoo, not.
I still can't believe it's 2009 already. Hahaha and how in like less than 2 months time it will be the end of my Year 1. :O
Ok I should gambatte instead of crapping here.
Tata!
***
I forgot to add I collected Fei Lun Hai's third album today and I'm damnnnnnnnn happppeeeeeee :D Omg shuai like donno what woohoo! :D And and and the songs are damn nice laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa <3<3<3
Saturday, January 03, 2009
Twenty-oh-Nine
Wow it's been 2009 for like 3 days already and I haven't been updating! :O Have been really busy for the past few days with things like celebrating my sis birthday and working. LOL. Okay only two but. Had loads of fun!
I fell sick during the chalet though, not fun ): Still, apart from that, everything else was, great. :D
Okayyyyyy now for the usual end of previous year and start of new year kinda post. Let's see....... what did I wish for 2008 last year?
Great health to all my loved ones, especially mummy. (:
Didn't exactly accomplish this point since I lost mama ):
I'm turning 18 gosh! I hope I don't turn into one of those girls who goes clubbing 24/7. Please no!
So totally accomplished this please, I'm gonna be 19 and I haven't gone clubbing. Yet.
Keep in contact with CTG121! As well as other friends who played a major role in my life in one way or another! (:
I tried. And I'm still in contact with Cherlyn and peeps! :D
Grow closer with JAS*HM girlies!
We still are close, I guess. We just met today :D Awesome.
Meet Fahrenheit again! LOL.
I did I did! I SHOOK YA LUN'S HAND TOO! AND WU ZUN'S AND CALVIN'S! AND OF COS XIANG RU FEI FEI! :D
For my wish to come true.
And that 2008 will be the greatest year ever! (:
And that 2008 will be the greatest year ever! (:
And as for the last two points, though I can't exactly remember what my wish was, but being myself I can pretty much guess. 2008, indeed, is an awesome year ((((:
Haven't thought of any resolutions for 2009 yet but I know it's gonna be a great year (:
***
JASTM GATHERING TODAY :D I love my girlies so much I swear I wouldn't know what to do without them.. Time really flies la it has been like what 3 years since we've graduated from KCP! OMG I feel old already. Am very very glad that we're all still in contact I LOVE YOU BABES!
Ok sudden abrupt end cos no privacy right now gahhhhhhhhhhh! BYE!
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