Life's lusts

Am still feeling upset over nothing and hating it. PMS much? ):

I ran out of blogs to read.. Out of topics in forums to read.. And still don't feel like sleeping.

So went to search on cars I think I'd like just to cheer myself up a little..


Lexus SC09
Mazda MX5

Mazda RX8

Chioooooooooo like don't know what. I want to learn driving ): but it's so expensive.... Never mind, can't wait till Cow gets his license. Haha

Anyway, read this joke on a forum.. I think it's like damn funny..

http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3159/2807838577_83cbed0126_o.jpg?t=1053139

Go read ok? LOL.

Ok I still feel so sian. ): SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGH.

Sayonara.

Sitting here beside myself

It's that time of the month again and I can't stop myself from feeling like shite again.
I've been cranky, and I hope the boyfriend understands that I'm being much girlier than usual. Hopefully. He doesn't get it sometimes which will result in cold wars. I know, me at fault too but..... I'm a girl. Hah.

I see myself reading some random pretty girls' blogs and thinking, why can't I be like that. Why do people seem to be living such eventful and wonderful lives while I'm stuck rushing for my projects and presentations. No, how can they live so eventfully despite school work. Is this the result of wanting to get better grades. I don't know. I do know I hate feeling inferior like I'm the boringest person on earth. Like I'm the ugliest girl on earth. I hate having zero self esteem.

And then I hate myself for being ungrateful for the little things I should be thankful for.

You know that feeling of watching your used-to-be close friends drift apart from you? I hate that. I hate knowing that it's happening yet being unable to do anything about it. I hate the awkward silence between a good friend who became merely an acquaintance and myself. I hate losing friends, yet I don't see much of a good friend in myself either.

I've been couped up in my school, work, and yes I admit it, the boyfriend. Why is it always the case. I hate the fact that a boyfriend means less time with friends (I'M NOT COMPLAINING! COW IS AWESOME). It's just, I'm exasperated at this opportunity cost. I want so much to have the best of both worlds but it seems like it can never happen.

And then with some time left to myself I spent reminiscing, thinking about the past, hating it. And feel fucked up.

I should be thankful, but right now I'm feeling anything but. I'm feeling awkward.

And I don't know what this is all about.


PS. Blogger's fucked.

Of Birthday Celebrations and Project Rants

*blows dust off*

Gosh. I have been so busy with everything I barely had the time to breath.

Project deadlines are all coming at once and next week I'll probably have 3 presentations. On the same day. WTH!

I've been feeling so tired ever since my project group ton at baby's house to finish up our Marketing Research project. ): I just feel like sleeping 24/7.

Alright enough of rants. Suck it up 2 more weeks and all the shits will be over! (:

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I've missed so many important days to blog about!

I baked Cow a cheesecake for his birthday and it turned out amazingly nice. Hahahaha I was seriously surprised at how good it turned out. I was so worried cos it was the first time I was baking a cake!

Hahaha nice right nice right? But it was too cheesey for our liking.. ):

Anyway, I had a blast on Cow's birthday lah.. Cycling at ECP (the two seater kind) which made me super scared cos stupid Cow cycled so fast but keep assuring me that I'm "in safe hands". -.- Afterwhich bowlinggggg then dinner at Jumbo with his family (((: Hehehe ILY Cow.

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And yesterday I met up with the girlies to celebrate Vic's belated birthday!!

Dinnered at Skinny Pizza.. which I find a lil to veggie-ish for me. Hahaha

And the usual camwhore shots! Hahaha

Had a great time, as usual. Love my girlies!

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And now I'm broke like crap. ): I need to save money............................ I want to shop so much I can't stand myself and my materialistic needs.

HUMPH.


Alright, till another time. I hope it wouldn't be my holidays when I post again. LOL. Love!

Here I go

I am so proud of myself cos I completed my FAOM IJ already when the deadline is on Thurs! AWW. Finally am doing some work ain't I. Did a lil for CB group project too........

I've been skipping school recently due to the shitload of projects. Why can't they give us project week or something. I find the lectures and tutorials redundant ever since mid sem test is over. Of cos I would rather spend time on the 30% or 40% project work right.

Two more weeks, I should just skip all my lessons and get a warning letter since it's gonna be the end of semester soon! Wooooooots.

Ah bad, bad. I'm just too lazy to get my ass to school.

Happy 7th and a day cow. (:

Sleepless nights

I seem to have problems getting to sleep on Sundays due to sleeping very late on Saturdays. ): I hate not being able to sleep cos a lot of shite will be running through my head. And of cos it's plain annoying wanting to sleep but being unable to, especially when you have to wake up at 7 plus in the morning for school.

The world is so effing small it scares me. I went bloghopping as usual and found some uhm, connections? :O

Anyway, I started work few days ago at a dance school and today I had work. They offer ladies only pole dancing class and my colleague and I were bored so she ask me to try cos she kinda learnt it while working. I swear it's damn bloody tiring I tried spinning like two rounds and my arms are aching till now! Ok lah maybe I weak. But fun leh! Hahahahaha :D And I have a bruise on my knee. LOL. Kens I tell you.

Anyway, I'm fucking stressed over my projects and I'm praying so hard everything will turn out fine. Well, I guess praying doesn't help unless I get my lazy ass to do something about it. Hurhur.

Anyway, it's gonna be the 7th together soon in a day and I'm really like woah surprisedtothemax that we are still staying strong (: Never liked to blog about things between me and baby here cos well, I SHY OKAY, knowing that some of my ex classmates do read my blog. LOL.

I've never been one to commit to relationships not because I don't want to but because all the guys I've met were either plain jerks, lying assholes or possessive freaks. :O Sad case, I know.

But I'm glad. Very glad. (: ILY COW. Despite our countless quarrels and tears of anger and sadness which I've cried during these months. (: It really does make us stronger eh, all these quarrels. Hehe.

Ok don't want to go on I'm feeling shy again. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks!

Nothing more

At this point in time I'm feeling.................... very happy with what I have. (:

Yeah, my past may be full of shit and nothing can take away everything that I've been through but hey, we all learn from the past.. Screw whatever that got me down, it's been a reeaaally long time since all that happened and maybe I was just too young to handle everything.

Am at so much peace with myself now. Hahaha..

Great family, great friends, great Mr. Sucker, great everyone around me. What's more to ask for?

Feeling like some photos so here're some taken at Hong Kong.

(:

Damn I miss Hong Kong. ):

But guess what.....................................................................???




MY AUNT MAY BE BRINGING ME AND MY CUZZIE TO TAIPEI DURING OUR END TERM BREAK! :D

Like seriously TAIPEI???? WHERE I WANNA GO MY WHOLE LIFE? (Actually since I know of Mike He and FeiLunHai. Hehehe)

Can't wait.


Did I mention how much I love my life already?

Screw projects

I CAN HARDLY BREATHE UNDER THIS PILE OF SHIT PROJECTS AND IJS WHICH I HAVE TO SUBMIT ALL VERY SOON.

): Hence my lack of posts.

I just finished my CCP IJ due tomorrow and I have BoE due on Friday and I have FAOM IJ due next Thursday and then allllll the freaking projects which have 30% weightage will be due 20something July and.....................

OMFG CAN I JUST DIE. ):

And this nagging headache of mine does not plan to leave me anytime soon. It loves me more than Mr Sucker does. ):

Random, but, today the most embarrassing thing happened. Cos it was raining so heavily before, school had puddles of water around. Deep puddles. And my sandal was kinda slippery.

I walked forward and left my sandal in the puddle.

GOSH so embarassing I tell you. ): I hope nobody goes "Eh you are the girl who walked and left her sandal in the water that day right?" anytime soon. I will just dig a hole and hide.

A happy, happy note. I changed my phone to the sibehchio Samsung Jet (: Thanks to baby's mum. (: Hehehehehe

My mum nag like siao. Ok I'm gonna try to sleep soon. I somehow wish that my headache wouldn't go away by tomorrow morning so that I can take MC. :O

Evil, evil thought. Muahahaha

Shoppaholic

I am left with $34.99 in my account and I can't stop myself from window shopping online. My pay's gonna come on Mon but it's only $90.

AND I MUST STOP SPENDING COS IT'S GONNA BE MR. SUCKER'S BIRTHDAY SOON.

And Vic's.

I hate being broke. ):
I hate being poor. ): ):

SIGH..............................