I went blading just now. Alone. I don't know why but I just had the sudden impulsion to blade alone, and not care about the world. And so I did.

I bladed to St. Michael's Church. I went to the Colombarium.

Time flies, really. It has been almost five years since my favourite aunt had passed away. Five years. I mean, that's a long time, no? I stood there for quite a long time. I felt guilty cos I haven't been to the Colombarium for a long time, using "busy-ness" as an excuse.

But was I really busy? So busy that I couldn't even find time just to drop by at a church so near my house for my favourite aunt? NO. I was just plain lazy. I'm such a bad niece.

I was the only person there, so I talked to my aunt. It's a weird thing to do, no? Hah. But yeah, I did anyway. Told her I really miss her. And I really do.

I remember how well she used to treat me. She treated me like her own daughter. I stayed over at her house often. And I remembered how she always prepare food for me in the middle of the night when I felt hungry and couldn't get to bed. I remember how she used to bring me to church to attend mass or the annual fun-fair.

And I remember how much I cried at the hospital. Yet, I remember barely shedding any tears during her funeral. I don't know why. Am I really that cold-hearted? I guess I was more of numbed, and refused to admit the fact that she had passed on. The only time I cried was at the crematorium. It felt so bad.

Now, five years has passed. Well, almost. And I still do miss her so so much. But I always believe that she's in a better place, up in heaven with God who loves her the most. I know more than often, I don't really believe in all this. But my aunt was a devout Catholic, therefore I know, that God will not abandon her. It is also she who makes me feel that all the Christianity stuff in school is bearable, cos the hymns and chapel sessions often remind me of her.

Aunt Millie, I miss you.


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On a happier note, I'm going to East Coast with Mel and maybe Val. (: I hope....... :D Gonna blade blade blade and blade and burn off all my fats. I eat so much during school days. ):

OH YES! You know the new show, the soon-to-be 9 o'clock Channel 8 show?? MY AH BENG IS ACTING IN IT!! HAHAHA! You know the purple-haired guy in some NKF show last year or something? The one who acted with Joanne Peh? I LIKE HIM!!!! But I think he look better with purple hair. HAHAHA! :D


I can't wait for tomorrow!