Brink of insanity

Tell me why do I feel like shit.







Ooooooooh right. I scored the lowest in class for Chinese-60%. Hooray. Look at me jumping for joy. Seriously this studies thing is crushing me down like fuck. U for Math, yeah I know I deserved that. U for Chem, well, yes, I didn't put in enough effort, so be it. S for Lit, okay stupid poem about a swan raping a girl.

C for Chinese?!?! WAH THANKS LOR. This is like the major blow okay. I've been speaking Chinese like 24/7 ever since I stepped into YJ, not that I'm complaining. I AM a cheena pong and I've been speaking Chinese so much more than before. And what do I get? C. Fine. Am I like supposed to speak English 24/7 like before to get at least a B?!

I''d be lying if I say that I'm totally cool with my grades. I. Am. So. Fucking. NOT. I was on the verge of breaking down, but I knew I must not. At least not in school. I'm just so fucking upset about Chinese okay. And I don't even know what's wrong with my compo.

And only 20% of the cohort passed Econs? WAH GREAT MORALE BOOSTER. I should just fail GP as well and fucking quit school lah.



Usually school grades don't put me down so much. Usually I don't give a shit about it. Usually I'll just try my best subsequently. Now it seems like trying my best won't help much either.

I used to be able to handle all this. But this time it seems like it's too much.

Too fucking much.



maybe this is really the wrong choice