I am this close to leaving school, just quitting, and probably work till the next intake for Poly comes.
I even went to check out the courses, well, to see if there're any others which I don't mind going (sadly, mass comm's still my fave):) and I think the new psychology course in TP is cool. Like anyway my aim's to get in Arts and Social Sciences in NUS so psychology is like the only course apart from mass comm that's related? Whoa, I totally can't imagine myself taking up Psychology, seems so far-fetched. But perhaps I will afterall. Cos JC life is simply fucked.
My sis is so gonna kill me, if I were to quit right now. Persevere to the end? I AM REALLY DYING. Every single day feels like a waste of time. Wandering to school and thinking about the future, like how I can never promote looking at my results now. And it's not like I definitely can, even if I put in my best effort, cos time is really running out and Promos are approaching and before we know it'd be here. It's not that I mind retaining, I don't, seriously. But the thing is that retaining doesn't guarantee my promotion either. Though it raises the possibility by quite a lot. I just don't think I can take another two years of this shit. Cos I really hate school. I really hate going to school. I really hate it.
I don't know, I really wanna leave. But I'm afraid I'll regret it like my sister did. Or should I just not compare the both of us? Cos we're really different. Like she's so into studying while I'm so NOT. Ahh. Do I really have to tolerate a few more months before deciding or should I just make up my mind once and for all so that I won't be as miserable as I am now?
YJ's not a bad school, the teachers there are nice (or at least most of them are), it's just that their system sucks like hell. And my peers, my classmates, my friends, they're all great people. It's just that I'm still not accustiomed to JC life after so long, and instead of getting used to it I'm hating it more as each day passes. It's so not me.
Some people may think that I should just get this over and done with. But do you know how getting it over and done with kills?? Especially if it's over a period of 2 to 3 years??? It sucks. So freaking much. Having to put up with each day and waiting for the day of graduation to come every moment. What's the point if I'm so unhappy? I don't know. All I know is that I'm really sick and tired of this life that I'm having, and it's not good at all.
Sorry for this really lengthy post. I am really, as you can see, exasperated with school and I don't know how long more I can tolerate with this.
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