And that feeling of doubt

So it's like de javu all over again

This confusing emotion
Full of uncertainty
Paranoia
And fear
All the more I shouldn't

Cos the memories keep rushing back
Back back
Again and again
Playing through in my head
Those times those days those moments

Pushing them further back
I tried I tried
But it only gets clearer
And clearer

With a message it warns
All the more I shouldn't
Cos all I'll get
Is hurt
Betrayal
Hurt
Hurt
And more hurt

That's why they are there
The memories
To remind me of the pain
How it's not worth

All the more I shouldn't
Cos I'd get nothing in the end
Nothing

All the more I shouldn't

This isn't real
No, it isn't.

This is just a figment of my imagination.
Everything will be fine
Like always
Everything will be fine
***

Days like these when my alter ego gets the better of me
I just have to sort my thoughts out
And go back to being the other me
The strong me
I don't need nobody.