Changed

I'm starting to hate the way you.....

treat home like a hotel,
come back in the wee hours of the morning,
treat the void deck your second home,
hang out at the basketball court 24/7,
are so irresponsible about your job,
barely stay at home for more than 5 hours without going out,
take photos with an unlit cigarette (oh, like it's so cool)
disregard mum's words,
make mum worry for you, her 23-year-old, supposedly old enough to think daughter.

Hey look here sister,

Haven't you always told me to stay away from the bad company, to stay away from people who smokes, drinks and what-nots? Now look who's doing all these stuffs, playing mahjong at others' house till 7 in the morning, coming back just for a couple of hours of sleep, then leave, again. I thought only rebellious fifteen-year-olds do that, not people your age. Ah lians do that, hang out with friends at the freaking void deck, refusing to go home. Teenagers do that. Not you. Even I have grown out of slacking outside, so what's up with this.
Yeah, so it's all because of a boyfriend, but don't you think there should be a limit? Don't you think you've changed ever since you start hanging out with this group of people? Now I know. Now I know what they mean by how one's group of friends changes one. Sadly, I learnt it through you. The sister who used to nag whenever I come home late. The one who doesn't like my hanging out with "ah bengs". Now you never do, because no matter how "late" I am, you will be later. If only you knew how worried mum is. This is getting tiring.

Don't you think you should practise what you preached. Where's the sister I used to know? The one who spends time with the family, the one who brings me out for mahjong sessions, the one, who cares about how mum thinks. And not the one, whose "coming back soon lah" means hours later.

It's not like you will ever read this.
But if you do, please, think through my words.

Love,
Mei.