I really hate the hypocrisy

My younger colleague called me just now to chat. That poor girl was left alone in the shop as the elder one was off today and the bosses (as usual) went out. So she called to talk. And she told me some things which really made me damn upset okay.

I thought that after lecturing me about not attending to the customers as fast as I should, the matter will blow over. I mean, yea, tell me my problems and of course I'll try my best to change and improve, isn't that it? But no, apparently my bosses (or boss I don't know if only one or both of them actually spoke ill of me behind my back) had to complain about me to my other colleagues.

According to my colleague, my boss said that I'm not serious in my work, and that (get this, I find this uber ridiculous for God's sake) I KEEP SMILING TO CUSTOMERS.

WHAT THE FUCK.

Like hello, my job is a receptionist. Ain't a receptionist supposed to SMILE and make customers feel WELCOMED? It's such a load of crap! Okay lor, I tell you tomorrow I go work I whole day black face. Customer come I slam their cup of tea on the table, splash the basin meant to wash their feet and stare at them like they owe me 90839759283759 million bucks ok?

I feel so accused like fuck!

Never mind, I haven't even gotten to the worst part yet. They like to pick on my younger colleague as well, but yesterday one of my bosses (I'll call her A. I think she's probably the one who's doing all this backstabbing more than S, my other boss) told my younger colleague,

你最近有进步了.....

因为来了一个比你更傻的.

FUCK OK. MY COLLEAGUE TELL ME THIS I DAMN FUCKING PISSED OFF LAH. WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO MAKE HER CRITICISE ME LIKE THAT.

And the worstest worstest thing is that she doesn't have the fucking guts to say this in front of my face! She's acting oh-so-nice in front of me, like all buddy-buddy. I thought she was nice, and I thought I was so fortunate to have such nice bosses.

C'mon lah, if they not happy with me just fire me lah. Why are they still tolerating me since I'm "so not serious" and I keep smiling to customers" (seriously what the fuck.)??

Now I know, A's nothing but a fucking hypocrite. And I really hope that S isn't too, cos as far as I know, she're more reasonable.

I'm trying not to get affected by this hypocrisy, but I am.

I fucking am.