Don't leave

This morning my sis and I were woken up by a call from my aunt, crying. She told us that our grandpa wants to see my sis. So we cabbed down.

When reached, I couldn't go in because it was the High Dependency Unit so only two visitors are allowed at the same time. I went in after a while. My grandpa motioned me over. Then cradled me to his chest, stroking my head as though consoling me.

I cried, hard. Sobbed like a child while laying on my Ah Gong. My dear grandfather whom I was afraid of all these years.

Ah Gong, don't leave us okay. Stay with us, watch us, your grandchildren, grow up and get married. Don't leave.

He told my aunts this morning that he has some money left for his funeral. Told them to spend money wisely. Asked me and my sis to take care of my Ah Ma, to visit her more often.

It's as though he wants to get all of us prepared if he were to leave. But Ah Gong, I don't want you to leave us. 我不要。

He seems fine in the evening. I really want him to get well. Please Ah Gong, 快点好ok.. 回家了，我们就买鸡精给你补补身体。

Get well soon, Ah Gong.

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I was really not in the mood for school today. Not in the mood at all... I'm so worried about my grandpa..

The last time I had someone close to me leaving was when I was Primary 5. I don't wanna go through it again, please....

It really hurts.