Too late

I don't know why I kept thinking, and thinking and thinking.

Of all the what-ifs, of all the could-bes. But this time, it's not about ___, but you.

Beneath the uncertainty, I actually felt... something. Like I've said I've been pushing it away, ignoring it. All this time. Cos I was too afraid to face it.

I don't know what struck me after such a long time, but today, I realised.. that strange feeling I felt when you were around me, how I always hope to see you again, the strange feeling I felt... when all the other girls seem to be able to get close to you (not neccessarily physically) but me...

I guess this is what's meant to be, like I've said. I saw this coming, but I just had no guts to do anything about it, to stop it.

But maybe, I might have not been able to do anything either. Perhaps it was all one sided?

But I thought.. my intuition told me otherwise.

Nonetheless, it's too late.


Too late for me to do anything. Not that I have the guts to.

Nah, this isn't a big deal. Probably just another one of my thinking too much. Yes, it must be it.
Because it would be too silly of me to only unearth these emotions when I haven't seen you in the longest time. Too silly.

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Mummy seems fine, but it breaks my heart to see her being injected by the nurses ): I hope she can be discharged soon.

My younger colleague told me that the bosses are thinking whether or not the shop can still run without my help in answering calls and stuff. Ok lor, sack me lor. The shop's undergoing some management facelift, and my older colleague would be in charge. I don't know if this is good or bad.

Aiyah, I don't know. Damn frustrated.
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Lappy is up and alive :D But I'm very sad cos I can't find my thumbdrive. All my PW stuffs!! Not that I need them anymore, but they are for memory's sake! ): I ransacked my whole room but still can't find. ))): Please please appear soon cos I'm really very sad.

Which reminds me, I totally forgot to say this though the results were like out 939898359 million years ago.

I GOT A FOR PWPWPWPWPW!!! AND B FOR A LEVEL CHINESE LAHHH! :D

Not that it matters, but still, an achievement! Hahaha.. And I do... hm, miss my PW group a whole lot. I miss YJ a whole lot. ):

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I should stop watching Yu Bai's repeat every night even when I'm dead beat. Cos it totally drains my energy even more and all I do in class is stone. Audrey drew a stone in her textbook and wrote "I'm Geraldine, watch me stone." cos throughout Comm Skills I was, well, stoning. Hahaha

But but but, this few days Yu Bai got Da Dong!!! So must watch. Hahahhaa

I want to watch Fan Gun Ba! Dan Chao Fan!!!

Ok, I'm gonna like fall asleep on Lappy now so tata! 20 more minutes till Yu Bai! (: