Poor, very poor.

Ok, job hunting hasn't been successful at all.

And I need a job, need a job right now. I'm just bumming around and sleeping and wasting the holidays away with only $19 left in my bank. Cool shit, dine.

Plus I owe my sis $171 for above mention ticket and owe my mum $70. Grrrrreat. How grrrrreeeaaatt.

Yes, I am damn bloody poor now. Yet I have a wishlist as long as............... a letter to Santa perhaps? Aiyer. Damn annoyed lah, cos I need a job. Ok, Classifieds everyday from tomorrow onwards till I get a damn bloody job.

Am re-watching Zhong Ji Yi Jia, OMG Totally rekindled my love for Gui Long. Ahhh~

I love. Bad boys. Hahahahaha

If anyone out there has a lobang for a job, please please please think of moi!!!

I Will Be

:DDDDDDDD

S.H.E - 沿海公路的出口

Ella：用一根火柴烧一场蜃楼
借这场大雨让自己逃走
荒茫公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走

用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一道伤口
躲在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收

Hebe：倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

Selina：我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

Hebe：我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆 却学不会放手
怎么走

Ella：倘若说放一次手
就像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔

Selina：我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

Hebe：我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆 却学不会放手
怎么走

Selina：我坐在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
连想你都是种残酷切磋

合：我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
游不出回忆 却学不会放手
怎么走
***
Fave. I can never get out of this, can I.

This is going nowhere

Stirred up a memory or two from the Pensieve, as usual, while having another sleepless night. Insomia hits me every holiday, though I have no idea why. I need to get the angst, frustration, helplessness, hurt outta myself. I need to rant, but. Seems like this space is less private than before.

Don't wish to have people read my deepest thoughts and emotions. Such irony, "When thoughts and emotions get too much", yes. Yet this is no longer a space for me to fill when they get too much.

No, I am not moving, I have been at Blogger since I was Sec One. Gosh, feels like I've just started blogging. I'm just dedicating another space to my alter-emo-ego, so that I have somewhere to rant, so that this space, is more like the usual me, the one you see.

So if you're feeling a tad adventurous, go ahead, try to find my other space. Even if you succeed, I assure you it wouldn't be a great achievement. Alternatively, you can just convince yourself that those posts will not be as interesting as you think it will be, and go catch Miami Ink on Channel 16 on Cable. Or if you have HBO, watch Freedom Writers cos it's a damn good movie.

***
I need to get out of home before I become a zai nu!!!

7pm-8pm: Watch the new Ch 8 show with Zzen! :D Or Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni if it's Wednesday to Friday.

8pm-9pm: Watch Nu Ren Wo Zui Da

9pm-10pm: The Ch 8 baby show!

10pm-11pm: Kang Xi Lai Le

11pm-12am: Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang!!!

12am-1am: MTV or Channel V or whatever channels that's nice.

1am-2am: Yu Le Bai Fen Bai if I didn't catch the afternoon one.

2am-3am: MIAMI INK.

After that I try to sleep but sadly, I won't be able to fall asleep until my sis wakes up and get ready for work which is like 6am. I don't know why either.

It's crazy, holidays are always this crazy.

I've lost 4 kgs (WOOHOO!) since holiday cos I haven't been eating. Cos I sleep. Like a lot. I woke up at 3 today and haven't eaten till...... now.

Hahahaha ok I think I'm mad. But ya, holidays screw me up.

I'M MISSING SCHOOL ALREADY!



PS. OMG WILL GET MY FEILUNHAI CONCERT TICKET THIS SAT! YA LUN!!!!!!!

Cos I...

Okay, sorry for the lack of updates! Have been busy with...

1. Work, but everything's done now.
2. Mel's birthday
3. Cable
4, Mahjong
5. Sims 2
6. Being lazy
7. Sims 2
8. Cable
9. Being lazy
10. Sims 2

Wahahahaha thanks to Vallie Val Val and Gladys I've got Sims 2 installed! :D

Anyway, met up with my girlies (ALL of them!) last Friday to celebrate Mel's birthday! The last time was like, during Labour Day I think! OMGGG.

LOVE MY GIRLIES! (:

***
Again, I've been thinking too much for my own good lately. Whatever, cos I am such a coward, I won't do anything about it.

So there's no point in even thinking about it. Cos I'll just run away in the end.

"明明有感觉
可惜时间 流出了我指间
回头却看的见
满地回忆的碎片"

So I can get over you

1. I have a new printer woohoo! (:
2. Wall.E yesterday with Val was awesome! <3<3 Vallieee!
3. Should stop procratinating about work.
4. Want to go shopping, BADLY.
5. About 92873894725798 things I saw in town I want to buy.
6. Gelare waffles yesterday was <3, but FAT.
7. Want to be fairer, sadly.
8. Want hair to grow faster.
9. Maybe not. Cut shorter?
10. ECP on Sat? :D

I am so indecisive. Should I cut my hair short or keep in long. I hate the length now it's torturing me...............................................

your words, they......

Mr Bean (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XESMAN! (((:

Headed down all the way to Northpoint just to celebrate your birthday so you should feel touched! Hahahahaha

I miss all of them. I miss being in the same class with them. ):

I miss...........

43 days to A's! Jia you jia you jia you!!! When A's are over, I can have my friends back! Hahahhaha

<3<3<3

还是好朋友，比爱人长久

不能牵的手按在心中...

What's left

"要风筝自由干脆剪断了线

让它忘了天空 随风而飞

越飞越高直到看不见

像电影里的画面

这样也许能让我好过一些

把你当作风筝在 随风而飞

飞到哪里我无所谓

我剪断了线

不再对你怀念...

Met up with Mei Yuan, Kelvin, Leonard and friends just now. Pretty awkward but was fine after a while. It feels great meeting up with people whom you haven't been in contact for a while. The last time I spoke to Kelvin was like, 4 years ago? Omg. He's pretty much the same (:

And it scares me to see all of us growing up so fast. Looking at them serving army, like whoaa didn't we use to play catching around school? I still remember Kelvin like to pull my hair lah.. Haha so silly, so innocent. It's amazing that he ended up in the same camp as Mei Yuan, some what like fate, for us good friends to meet up and all. (:

I like going out with Mei Yuan cos although he talks super a lot of crap and keeps calling me his gf despite having a real one, he really takes care of me :D But he really damn crap. I tell you he refuses to admit that he is shorter than me ever since Sec 1 k. LOL. Just now still come and act niang, damn funny.

VAL VAL, we meet Mei Yuan and Kelvin one day k! I MISS EUUUUUUUUUUU LOL. A's sucks. It's stealing my Vallie away from me ):

***

I am damn proud of my "masterpiece", hahaha I painted for myself then my cousin was like, "Eh, Meimei! I also want! Paint for me!" LOL.
Hers turned out nicer, of cos. Hahaha

***
I get angry at life, at times like this. Why must this happen to mummy time and again. She's an amazing woman, with a heart of gold. Seriously. What did she do to deserve such suffering. Why. She don't deserve this. Despite being a freethinker, each time I go to church to visit my aunt at the columbarium, I'll sit in front of Jesus, and pray. Keep my mummy safe, keep my mummy healthy. Please, bless her with good health and a speedy recovery. But no, my prayers have not been answered. Not this time. But why. My mummy really don't deserve this. Keep such sufferings to me, not her, not mummy. She doesn't, doesn't deserve it at all.

Muff muff sticks her tongue out when she's sleeping. I mean, when I took this photo she woke up but still left her tongue stuck out. My silly baby (:

...爱总是让人心碎

让我无法入睡

我又忍不住走进了房间

我闭上了眼

又被思念包围"

Dinosaur!

The auntie who helped me bandage is damn cute. She was like,

"I give you green one okay! Green one got dinosaur!"

Hahaha make me feel like a very loved kid! (:

And this time they gave me a tomato to squeeze instead of a heart. :D Damn cute please! Okay, I'm gonna make it a point to donate regularly! Next donation, Decemberrrr!

It warms my heart to see so many people donating today (: There should be more. And trust me, it really doesn't hurt cos there's anaesthesia, and what's more, all it takes is like probably 20 minutes of your time and you will be saving someone's life! Go try it! :D

Oh, but silly me forgot to bring a cardigan and had to walk around with that green DINOSAURRR bandage around my arm! Pretty embarrassing okayyyyy! LOL. My mum can't stop laughing at me!! Pfft.

Speaking of my mum, we were at Chinatown hawker centre when I walked past a tian ji zhou(frog porridge) stall which had like live frogs beside the wok, and a sign saying, "guaranteed fresh" or something like that. Then I told my mum, "Mummy, the frogs like so poor thing omg!" She laughed then after a few moments.............

"Mei, want to eat tian ji zhou?"

Zzzzzzzzzz. Hahahha then she started laughing. Mummy so cute. :D

***
I'm waiting for Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang to start! Now that Xiao Le is sitting in the front row and is a senior, OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG can see like loads of him :DDD

AWESOME.

Just because

"I was left to cry there

Waiting outside there

Burning with a lost stare

That's when I decided

Why should I care"

I am currently hooked on Miami Ink, slow maybe, but I love the tattoos lah so damn nice. So damn real. NICE.

Okay just started my first "assignment", which didn't go as well as I expected cos.... Aiyer. Anyway, IlikeXiaoLe OMGGGG He's damn cute please :D

I am quite sick of staying at home, so Fart King, when pergi ruma kau play mahjong???? Or when pergi cycling?????

Aku nak get out of ruma aku laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Maybe meeting Cherlyn and the rest tomorrow. Woohoo! And, maybe gonna donate blood tomorrow. :D

K bye Miami Ink NOW!

OhmahGAD!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGG.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I AM DAMN HAPPY!

FIRST, I GOT THE JOB AND THE PERSON IS COOOOOLIOZXS LIKE THAT.
AND AND AND


I PASSED ALL MY PAPERS, AND I DIDN'T FAIL BA LAH! OMGOMGOMGGG!!





WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

I'm starting to trip

OH MY GOD.

Okay so my sis got this part-time admin job thingy from her friend and I'm going to go for a casual interview with the person tomorrow. :O Quite nervous.

:O:O:O

I just hope the job scope is something I can handle, cos it seems like a really cool job.

But still, meeting the person face to face is really

:O:O:O:O:O

I am such a scaredy cat. :O:O:O:O:O:O


Okay my hair is growing at the speed of like......... 1cm/yr.
I want long hair................... so that I can dye it purple. Hahahahhaahahaha

Ok nonsense BYE.

AKU TAKOT BESOK RESULTS PLUS INFORMAL INTERVIEW.
HABIS. HABISSSSSSSS!

Anjing gembira!

This is PRINCE, Adriel's dog! Damn cute lah!!! He's damn active!! :D But Muffin couldn't stop sniffing me when I reached home. Hahaha I think she jealous!

So while the guys were playing mahjong (I gave up after like two rounds cos I was really broke and.................... ya), I played with Prince! And then went to watch some DVD with Huda, Chin Kiat and Eric. I think Eric watches that show on repeat :O Hahahhaahahhaha

Fun fun :D I like. We go cycling/skating (for me and Brian LOL.) soon OKAY!!!!!

***
I NEED A FREAKING JOBBBBBBB. Forgot to buy Classifieds today! ):

Okay, aku having headache now. Kental sial, nak tidor soon!

edit:
Iforgotsomethingso important!

ANYONE WANTS TO GO TO FEILUNHAI'S CONCERT WITH ME?!!!!!!!!!

I am damn sad lahhhhhhhhhhh I can't find anyone to go with me and I don't feel like going alone. ): Ticket's at $171 but seats are better than that of Sistic's! If by the 12th I still can't find anyone, I'll..... I'll have to go alone ): But it's FeiLunHai! So of cos rather go alone than not to go at all.. Hahahaha

Okay bye! Aku nak tidor already laaaa!

Is it enough to breath

My next phone will not be a Nokia one. They bluff me okay. They say my phone memory won't be gone................................ but *poof* my 2000 over messages all gone can. ): I don't like. Don't like the feeling of having no messages in my phone lah. Suckx0rszx. Liars!

And and and, it seems like each time I use a Nokia phone, confirm guarantee plus chop must go to the service centre at least once. Blah.

I WANT MY PINK LG VIEWTYYYYYYYYYY!

Lao niang still got no job. ): Classifieds don't exactly help. LOL.

EH OMG THE GIRL ON WO CAI NOW IS DAMN FAIR!!!! Chicken nugget. Why some people can be so fair. :B Lao niang two years never go Sentosa liao still so tan. Zzz.

ANYWAY, I am so bored.............. I need to find a job cos rotting at home for another month will kill me.

I want to play mahjong.
I want to skate.
I want to drink hooch or booz.
I want to watch Wall.E
I want to....

GO TAIWAN.


wrong, all wrong. so wrong.

7 Randoms

1. I went KBox today, finally fulfilling my craving for KTV after what seemed like a century.
2. I want to go shopping.
3. I want to play mahjong.
4. I hate facing up to my emotions.
5. I love Fei Lun Hai (woohoo~)
6. I need a job, cos lao niang now super broke.
7. I feel like listening to Jay Chou's songs now.

-
ME IS HAPPY. BECAUSE ME SISTA WILLING TO PAY FOR ME IN ADVANCE FOR FEILUNHAI'S CONCERT TICKET! WOOHOOOO BUT AT THE SAME TIME ME IS SAD COS NO ONE CAN GO WITH ME LAH!

Okay, whatever lah I am just feeling very boh liao and trying to stop myself from thinking too much cos it sucks.

Woohoo FeiLunHai!

edit:
Found an okay quiz to do! Thanks to Friendster bulletin LOL.

1. Ever eaten a bug?
No...... I hope.

2. What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
KTV-ed! :D

3. How many TRUE best friends do you have?
maybe 2? Val and Cherlyn! Hahaha (:

4.Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
-.- would you rather get up early?

5.Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?
It says, "Even heroes have the right to bleed"

6. What are you excited about right now?
FeiLunHai's concert! :D

8. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
Cry over the truth.

9. What’s on your bedroom floor right now?
Muffin's bed?

10. Who’s the last person you got into an argument with?
Sister, I think.

11. Do you trust people?
Sadly, yes.

12. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
TAIWAN!

13. Your favorite number?
7 (:

14. Could you go a day without eating?
Yep

15. How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl?
I won't say it doesn't matter.. As long as he is easy on the eye (:

16. Do you like anybody right now?
How about Ya Lun? Maybe Xiao Le.. and Wei Yu, you know.

17. When was the last time you had your hair cut?
About 3 months ago.

18. Would you rather be mad or sad?
Sad lah.

19. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
YES. Accusations and heartbreaks.

20. Whats the best feeling in the world?
The feeling of giving.

21.Are you close with your mom?
Yes, I'm such a mummy's girl please! LOL.

22. Are your parents strict?
Nope.

23. Do you tell your parents everything?
No lah, nothing about relationships.

25. Name some fears you have:
Cockroaches, insects, bugs.

26. Does the thought of marriage scare you?
Yea, somehow.

27. How many kids do you want?
2.

28. What’s your favorite season?
Autumn.

29. What’s your favorite color to wear?
Black.

30. Who was the last person in your bedroom?
Sis?

31. What are you doing today?
Waiting for Yu Le Bai Fen Bai to start.

35. Do you get bored easily?
Yea I guess?

36. What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you?
Hypocrisy.

37. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
Ya to Jeslyn, but why, I don't know hahaha

38. Do you wish you were famous?
Sometimes.

39. Do you make a wish at 11:11?
Oooh you do? Does it work?

40. When you go to the beach do you swim or lay out more?
Lay out.

41. Who’s the last text message you received from and what did it say?
Sister, "Den reach hm go keep it.."

42. What are you freakishly obsessed with?
FeiLunHai maybe? :O

43. What’s your favorite song at the moment?
Bu Yao Er Yu by Guo Jing

44. Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online?
Shopping online!!!

45.Can music affect your mood?
Yea sometimes.

46. What piercings do you want?
Tongue and navel(again).

48.Have you ever been in a cave?
Nope, have you?

49.Where did you kiss the last person?
School.

50. When will you hang out with the person you last kissed next?
Probably never, I hope..........?

51. Are you in a good mood?
Kinda... not really.

53. Would you rather skydive or bungee jump?
How about both. Woohoo~

54. Do you like snakes?
I'm okay with them, I think.

55. What’s one place you would like to visit?
Besides Taiwan, Venice and Rome!

56. Do you like waffles?
Yes, love the ones from A&W!

57. Does the number 23 have any significance to you?how?
Nope.

58. Be honest, do you like people in general?
I guess, do you?

59. What color are the walls in your bedroom?
Whitish.

60.Do you think starbucks is expensive?
It's ok when I'm rich, yes when I'm broke.

61. Are you named after a family member?
Nope.

62. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass or fail?
Pass lah.

63. Wanting to tell someone something?
Yea you suck.

64. Last restaurant you went to?
Long John's!

65. What happened yesterday?
Visited mummy!

***
Okay I'm really bored and I have no mood for Key Quest which is sad cos..... no more rare items. ):

/edit.

Even the best falls down sometimes

MJ-ed at Sean's house haha eh sucker, I can't own you in pool at least I can own you in MJ!!!!!!! Hahahahahaha Poor JZ da xiang gong and xiao xiang gong each time lah! Hahahaha and Adriel tiao zhng like damn a lot of times!

Damn fun! I like :D MJ again again!!! But the rest like damn poor thing -Brian, CK and Joey could only entertain themselves with TV and PSP. Hahaha OH OH damn shocking I found out that some of them actually watch YI NAN WANG! That super long winded 4.30pm Hokkien drama which my mum watches! LOL. Adriel suddenly sang the song damn loud can Hahahahha

Okay, going for an interview tomorrow! Good time, cos I'm damn bloody broke.

Mummy seems fine (: And it was Aunt Millie's 7th death anniversary today. Took some time to go to the colombarium at St. Michael's church.. 7 years.. Time really flies. And I always wonder, how would it be like if she's still here?

***
I'm feeling rather vexed now....

Like ive been stuck in my circle ever since _ left
and ive been running away
cooped up in my own circle of emotions
refusing to let anyone in
but im sick of it
sick of being afraid.
But..

There's nothing I can do about it.
And sometimes I feel like it's better for me not to do anything.

Perhaps, ignorance is bliss.

Rainy days, gloomy days.....

I am amazing. Snoozed my alarm from 11am to 12.30pm! Gosh. Where got time to prepare and meet the guys at 2pm at Parkway! LOL.

So yea met up with them at Parkway for poooool. Been such a long time since I played pool.. Didn't like to step into pool halls ever since...... ever since. Anyhoo, seems like my skills ain't rusty lahhhhhhh cos I almost own Sean lah but he suck so he won Muahahahaha~

Anyway, such a bad day for a BBQ today cos it started pouring when we reach la, while the guys were trying to start the fire.. Poured, like really poured, and the wind was fucking strong. Damn bloody cold lah we were drenched despite the shelter!! But thanks to the sheer determination of the guys, managed to get the fire up!

Drank a lil on empty stomach so felt a little weird but was okay after I ate (: Brought the guys and Aud to buy some drinks damn it's AWESOME to be 18 okay hahahahaha can like proudly show the shopkeeper NAH I'M EIGHTEEN SEE! Hooch rocks really.

Pics up!
Hudaaaaa aku good kawan!!!! :DWith Huda's signature twisttttt!
Adriellllll!
Chicken Little who keeps disturbing me about my mole PFFT.
This is the sucker Sean, who is damn red cos he drank LOL
Rather unglam class shot! (grabbed from Audrey! (: )

The best (:

Anyway, thanks for the whole organisiing and stuffs. Though things didn't turn out as expected but whatever lah... Hahaha still had fun (:

Kinda reminds me of last year 121's BBQ which sucked at one point cos some fucker think it's damn macho to punch a mirror. Ooops said it out, didn't I hahahaha I miss the people though.

Okay, gonna head to bed after my hair dries!!!!

PS. I'm such a mummy's girl. I miss mummy. ):

perhaps its the rain, or probably the alcohol.
i couldnt stop thinking about _ when walking back. i couldn't.
isnt it so silly
so silly. cos its been so long.

Meh

Okay sorry for the emomemo post earlier on, I am not usually like that lah (or am I?) I don't know really.

Pics took on Friday!

LOVES.

Note that Val was the only one in uniform..... and Wene made sure she didn't forget about that. Hahahaha Funny guy!

I LOVE YOU VAL VAL! <333333

Anyway Brian if you read my blog, Niki has no idea who you are so you're probably insignificant to him LOL! Kidding lah, but he really can't remember who you are :O

***
Happpppyyyyeee! Cos mummy bought clothes and a pair of damn nice sandals for me can! Cool like..... Woohoo~

Looking forward to 1B12's BBQ on Tuesday!

But at the same time...........
Mummy,
stay strong (:

Okay, I'm gonna start online shopping again! Damn.

I NEED A JOB! ANY LOBANGGGGGSSSSS?