Because it scares me so

It really is like deja vu.
And I can't express my fear.

Once again it feels like this blog is more public than it's supposed to be.

And it's all running in my head.
I need to straighten out my thoughts..

No, maybe not.
Cos I won't be able to come up with anything anyway.
what if............
what if............
I hate myself for this.