Chyeah

So much for determination.

I just ate an entire piece of honey chicken chop (with loads of chilli powder, I like!) and am going for a buffet dinner tonight.

-.-

I brought Muffin out for a walk just now. And I'm super tired now. I wonder if it is me or her who actually exercised. Silly girl keeps wanting me to carry her when she's suppose to be the one walking! Lol.


Tired ah, gonna take a short nap before going for dinner! (Holiday Inn buffet woohoo!)

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炎亞綸 劉力揚 - Ti Amo


虽然是简单的形容
虽然是重复的动作
因为有你
让一切都变成不平凡

好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福

Ti Amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你 沉入梦境
一张眼 一清醒
第一个想到又是你

Sa lang hae And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天 就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎

好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福

Ti Amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你 沉入梦境
一张眼 一清醒
第一个想到又是你

Sa lang hae And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天 就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎

陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
永远都觉

OMG I LOVE THIS SONG HAHAHAHA FINALLY GOT THE MV :D

I'd melt if Ya Lun plays the piano in front of me.



No, I'd melt even if he's just standing in front of me.
I LOVE YA LUNNNNNNNN! :D

Determination

I AM GOING ON A DIETTTTTTT FROM TODAY ONWARDS.

DIET.

D-I-E-T.

DIET!!

COS I FEEL DAMN FAT.
FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT.


SO YES. AM VERY DETERMINED TO LOSE WEIGHT.

SAY, UP TO 5 KGS AYE?

:D YEAAAAAAH!

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Main point of this post is about my determination to lose weight. Muahahahahaha

LOSE WEIGHT! DIET! LOSE WEIGHT! DIET!

(I left two more episodes to the end of Zhong Ji Yi Jia....... NOOOOOOOOO! YA LUN IS DAMN CUTE LAH OMG.)

Yep okie bye!

I really hate the hypocrisy

My younger colleague called me just now to chat. That poor girl was left alone in the shop as the elder one was off today and the bosses (as usual) went out. So she called to talk. And she told me some things which really made me damn upset okay.

I thought that after lecturing me about not attending to the customers as fast as I should, the matter will blow over. I mean, yea, tell me my problems and of course I'll try my best to change and improve, isn't that it? But no, apparently my bosses (or boss I don't know if only one or both of them actually spoke ill of me behind my back) had to complain about me to my other colleagues.

According to my colleague, my boss said that I'm not serious in my work, and that (get this, I find this uber ridiculous for God's sake) I KEEP SMILING TO CUSTOMERS.

WHAT THE FUCK.

Like hello, my job is a receptionist. Ain't a receptionist supposed to SMILE and make customers feel WELCOMED? It's such a load of crap! Okay lor, I tell you tomorrow I go work I whole day black face. Customer come I slam their cup of tea on the table, splash the basin meant to wash their feet and stare at them like they owe me 90839759283759 million bucks ok?

I feel so accused like fuck!

Never mind, I haven't even gotten to the worst part yet. They like to pick on my younger colleague as well, but yesterday one of my bosses (I'll call her A. I think she's probably the one who's doing all this backstabbing more than S, my other boss) told my younger colleague,

你最近有进步了.....

因为来了一个比你更傻的.

FUCK OK. MY COLLEAGUE TELL ME THIS I DAMN FUCKING PISSED OFF LAH. WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO MAKE HER CRITICISE ME LIKE THAT.

And the worstest worstest thing is that she doesn't have the fucking guts to say this in front of my face! She's acting oh-so-nice in front of me, like all buddy-buddy. I thought she was nice, and I thought I was so fortunate to have such nice bosses.

C'mon lah, if they not happy with me just fire me lah. Why are they still tolerating me since I'm "so not serious" and I keep smiling to customers" (seriously what the fuck.)??

Now I know, A's nothing but a fucking hypocrite. And I really hope that S isn't too, cos as far as I know, she're more reasonable.

I'm trying not to get affected by this hypocrisy, but I am.

I fucking am.

A little too sensitive

I kinda got ticked off at work today, and I felt kinda upset. Nothing major at all, but still, I feel like I ain't meeting their expectations and however well I present myself will never be good enough. Oh well

):

Sadly, I think I work better when the bosses ain't around. At least I feel less stressed and thus can handle situations better.

I don't like the politics.

Trying hard to make it through

Changed my blogskin! Damn proud I edited it by myself! :D Hahaahahhaa

Anyway Zhong Ji Yi Jia rocks omg! Love love love love Ya Lun! (: LOL. But I don't seem to have the time to watch it.. Sucks lah, I've been waking up early on days when I'm not working as well. I haven't slept in till satisfied for so long!

Sigh.

Today's lunch with the girlies was great!!! I love them so much laaaaa! Hope to get the pics soon babes! (:

I'm damn tired but I wanna watch Zhong Ji Yi Jia but I'm meeting Mel at 1045 at Jurong East tomorrow morning because of some shitcrap mystery shopping AHHHHH. There goes my beauty sleep again. ):

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I've got to learn to really save up, cos the days ahead may get tougher, financially. I pray that everything will be fine.

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Alright, is my new blogskin niceeeee? Hahahaha

Dang, I haven't decided if I should watch Zhong Ji Yi Jia. Perhaps one or two episodes. Zzzomg so off I go now ok bye! :D

Finally

After a long wait of almost three months.................










MY ZHONG JI YI JIA PART TWO FINALLY CAME OUT!!! ZOMGGGGG I ALMOST DIED FROM WAITING! CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED IN THE LAST EPISODE I WATCH LAH, ONLY REMEMBER YA LUN DAMN CUTE (AS USUAL OMG!)

Gonna start watching later! WOOHOO! :D

Anyway, went to Cherlyn house today after receiving her call at like 1130am! Was still sleeping and felt damn lazy to get out of my home BUT, because miss her a lot (and also the rest of the people haha!) so I did! :D Damn happy to see them again! And as usual, her house like kbox got so many new songs so started singing!

I hope all of them will do well for block tests! All the best people! (:

Lunch with the girlies (ZOMG FINALLY AFTER SO LONG WE'RE MEETING UP AS A WHOLE!) tomorrow!!! Damn happy la hahahaha work tomorrow though. Hopefully will be as fun as yesterday, but maybe not cos the bosses will be around.

Oh well, off to watch my X Family (Zhong Ji Yi Jia) and oh, maybe read my books (finally went to borrow some nice nice books from the library after so long!) first cos there's Yu Le Bai Fen Bai later!

而我已经分不清 你是友情 还是错过的爱情
this phrase keeps ringing in my head. so apt, to describe how i feel.
i guess it's meant to be nothing at all.

This unresolved part of me

Yesterday was last day at ze other assignment! Gonna quite miss the people there although I've only known them for a month. Gonna miss gossiping about the pretty pretty people working there with my best colleague! ): Hahaha but actually I'm really relieved that this job has ended cos juggling with two jobs is really tiring.

Today I went to TTSH for my eye check up (yes, ze wonderful eyes are still being rebellious and hate contacts -.-) and though my dry-eye condition improved, the doctor told me that I'm probably not suitable for contact lens as my eyes has developed a reaction against it.




Resigned to wearing specs. ): Oh well, on the plus side, I CAN wear lens, just not daily.

Work at the other place today was absolutely great without the bosses around (haha!). Me and my other two colleagues who are from China had such a great time chatting! I swear my mandarin improved tremendously :D since working there.. LOL. One of them actually cooked lunch and dinner for us lah, so nice! Hahaha

Ok, now for some random pics (now got 3.2 mp handphone so must make full use of it! LOL I've got a Nokia 5610 Xpress Music by the way. So much for a pink phone, I chose function over style in the end. Wise choice?)

Look what I've done to my nails! I did them yesterday, by myself! *beams proudly* :D

I haven't had a picture of my darlingggggg in such a long time! Here, look how cute she is!

And lastly,

Please visit The Short Trip for clothes and accessories! A storewide 10% sale is on now!!! :D

/edit: I forgot to say, I watched The Water Horse and teared. T.T I really cannot watch movies with humans leaving their pets/ vice versa or with deaths of pets of any kind. Makes me tear more than death of a person. Damn heartwarming movie, go watch it! (:

Zonked

Ok I still feel pretty much emo (must be all the sad chinese songs that I've been listening to lately) but oright, I'm fine. This emo shite comes and goes whenever it likes.

I'm really really tired. Today's a Sunday but it feels like any normal weekday cos I've been working from 11 am and ended work at only 9 pm. Tuesday's my last day of being workoholic Dine as one of my assignment will end by then. Woohoo!

Holding two jobs is really damn tiring. Dang.

I'm really determined to save for a laptop (really wish to have enough to afford a pink one). I don't care if it's not compulsory for my course, I just want one. And I wish I have a new house too, I want my own bedroom.

Alright, I'm really tired. Gotta wake up at 6.30 am tomorrow to go for the stupid TP's pre-enrolment medical checkup.

I think they're afraid that we're suffering from depression and start going crazy when we study.
Whatev, goodnight.

/edit: realised I used a lot of "really"-s in this post. Really?

Haunts

I love to immerse myself in listening to emo songs then start feeling emo and start hating myself for feeling emo.

Pretty psychotic yes.



梁静茹-会呼吸的痛

在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

元卫觉醒 - 像个小孩

有一种痛不会痊癒
当我想起你微笑的表情 (想告诉你)
回忆在我耳边呼吸
让我彻底的输给了伤心 (我还是爱你)

停格在过去的爱里
心里的钟 不再前进
闭上眼我无法抗拒
每一个念头 都想的是你

分开才知道分不开
在世界尽头眼泪偷偷掉下来
原来在爱情里我像个小孩

越亲爱越理所当然
却忘了紧紧拥抱你的爱
我当时为何不明白

我不要在你的将来里置身事外
当我回去你还在不在

分开才知道分不开
在世界尽头眼泪偷偷掉下来
原来在爱情里我像个小孩

越亲爱越理所当然
却忘了紧紧拥抱你的爱
我当时为何不明白

分开才知道分不开
在世界尽头眼泪偷偷掉下来
原来在爱情里我像个小孩

越亲爱越理所当然
却忘了紧紧拥抱你的爱
我觉得自己好失败

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I'm so in love with this song.


I'm feeling down now. Like down down down down. For no apparent reason.

_l_

Not dead from work overload, yet

I haven't had pics up on my blog for the longest time, so here goes! (Taken on Ziya's birthday! But only Val and I cos we were camwhoring while Mel and Joel went to find the tiara LOL)

We were making a collage for Ziya! Hahaha.. I was in charge of pasting!

End product! :D



Camwhores LOL.


That day was awesome! Love my girlies so much (: Glad that Ziya was surprised! Hahaha.. Finally a successful surprise birthday celebration! LOL.

I want to buy a pink lappy. ): But Vaio is damn ex lah, very sad. Sighhhhhhhh. Oh, anyway got my TP enrolment package already. Very scared that I forgot to submit everything and end up with no school to go to. :O

I'm tired, supposed to go back to sleep (no morning job today) but I haven't been online for a long time.

I'm in love with a few songs lately. Will post the videos up soon! Haha.. Alright gonna go back to sleep soon.. Update next time!

P/S: I DIDN'T GO FOR THE GONG ZHU XIAO MEI ACTIVITY ): COS IT WAS MY UNCLE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION. DAMN SAD. ):

Workoholic Dine

As of tomorrow, I'll be working two jobs. (: (: because I like the other job very much. The people in charge are absolutely nice. (: because they don't mind me continuing even after school starts. (: because I don't have to worry about having no job after this shit crap one that I'm having ends.

And of course (: because that will mean having at least some money coming in every month, which will in turn lessen mummy's burden.

Woohoo, I feel grown up. Hahahaha


I'm about to fall asleep on my lappy anytime. Tired like crap, especially since it's that time of the month. Did I mention I went to JB just now? Yah, even more tired.

Goodnight, all. (:

And this will be the last

I'll stop being a loser. No more thoughts of the past from today onwards. (:

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Steamboat at Uncle Jackson's house today! :D Hahahah damn fun lah! Uncle's very nice. LOL.

From what I've heard, all I can say is, I'm disappointed at how what once used to be such a lively, united class, become reduced to the state now. Sadly, I'm in no position to say anything. I'm not even part of it now. Oh well.

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Should I stick to buying my pink phone, or Nokia 6500 slide???

AH. Sucks. I can't decide.

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Regarding my previous post, the only exception is Gr4vity! Hahahaahha :D



I have a lot of things on my mind which I wish to accomplish. Sadly, wanting to and being able to, is a whole lot different.

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