Won't you

I went for my first dental visit to clean my teeth ever since I when to get my molar removed the other time.

If I could, I would rather donate blood ten times. Or draw blood ten times. Or go for hundreds of injections. I would rather face a million needles than sit on a dentist chair. Freaks me out like mad and the pain! It's seriously damn fucking painful.

And my next time there would be in October. ): I don't wanna go back...............

I have been missing out on a lot of my girlies activities and I'm feeling very upset about it. I miss them like crazy but I feel like a bumblebee, I seem to be too busy for them. And that sucks. A lot. I'm so sorry girlies ):

And school's starting. Can you believe it. Two months of holidays, poof! GONE! Vanished.

I'm praying for someone I know to be in my class.
I'm praying for nice classmates.
I'm praying for a reasonable timetable.
I'm praying and hoping very much, that everything else pretty much remain the same.

Changes freak me out. I don't think I can handle them.

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times like this when my insecurities eat me up
leaving me with nothing but fear and paranoia
with thoughts of most undesirable happenings happening
what i fear most coming true
that maybe tomorrow will be the end of the day
or just the end

i hate feeling this way
i hate how inferior i feel
i hate feeling like everyone out there is better than me
like im the worst person living......

Pardon the random emoness, it's the time of the month and I always feel a million times more emo than usual. Imagine that.

Thank goodness for Stitch. I'll hug him to sleep tonight.

<3