张惠妹-掉了

心疼的玫瑰
半夜还开著
找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到现场却已来不及
等待任何回音都不可得
微弱的风筝
冬天里飘著
回不去手中缠线的那个
没有蓝天
又何必去飞
怎么适合

黑色笑靥掉了
雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色
结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人
故事情节掉了
主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对脚戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐
断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口 全掉了

曾经唱过的歌
分享过的笑声
在心中不断拉扯
想念不能承认
偷偷擦去泪痕
冬天过了还是会很冷

黑色笑靥掉了
雪白眼泪掉了
该出现的所有表情瞬间掉了
瞳孔没有颜色
结了冰的长河
回忆是最可怕的敌人
故事情节掉了
主角对白掉了
该属于剧中的对脚戏也掉了
胸口没有快乐
断了翅的白鸽
不枯萎的藉口 全掉了

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Favourite song at the moment.

I'm feeling all out of my element. I'm losing faith in myself, in feeling, in having emotions. I hate the fact that love makes people so vulnerable. I don't know why I'm feeling like that. Neither can I decipher those ridiculous thoughts in my head.

I'm trying....

True blue Gemini

MY HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!

I can't wait to catch up with friends. I feel very lost without them. It's scary how easy it is to drift apart. ): When it takes months and years to build a friendship up.

And I'm feeling down, confused, mixed up, a stir of shite emotions again. I can barely understand myself. Sometimes I think I'm to Gemini for my own good. I have too many alter-egos, too many different personalities, too many different... me-s.

One major part of me feels so contented, like I cannot ask for more. Another part of me feels so disorientated, so lost. I'm in doubt. Whenever it comes to relationships, I have no control over anything and it scares me. Not knowing what the future may bring, not knowing where this is going to go. I don't like such uncertainties. Heck, I've been living with such uncertainties and insecurities for God knows how long, I hate it.

Aah, the endless rants. Again. Pardon me, I'm pretty sure I'll be awake tomorrow with whole new emotions.

I need to learn to trust myself.

Head Ache

I hate headaches. I ALWAYS get them. They paralyse me to the extent that all I can do is crawl up into a ball on my bed with the lights off cos I cannot, CANNOT look at any light.

I would rather suffer cramps. Have cough, flu, sore throat whatever. Anything but these horrible headaches.

): They made me waste my Saturday away sleeping while baby was here.

I hate headaches. Go away.

And, and, screw you MBS. Go away, too.

Hachi

Eighth yesterday (: ILY Cow.

And stupid Cow fell sick. ): I guess it shows that he isn't retarded since he hasn't been sick for soooooooooo long. LOL.

AND MY ONE WEEK TO STUDY MBS IS HERE! Though I really have no idea how about to start studying for MBS. Suck balls.

G.I. Joe tomorrow with Cow & family! :D


PS. Hope you get better baby.. <3

Follow the signs

Gemini
Love: Paying attention to gossip will add fuel to
fire.
Drop the
paranoia and trust that things will work
out.

From this month's issue of Cleo.

Pretty scary, considering all that went through my mind recently. I was on the brink of recluse when the memories flooded back for no apparent reason. I would say it would be good advice.

Anyway, caught Up with baby and family last Saturday and I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee the movie. It's damn nice lah! If you haven't watch it go go go!! It's like the best cartoon along with my other favourites like Ice Age and Monsters Inc.!

I'm super relieved. One more 10% CCP test this Friday and I have a week to slack and start worrying about the MBS paper! The holidays are almost here!!! :D Can't wait!

Tata

We've built a wall

10 ways to please females

1. Dont sweet talk. Speak sincerely with words coming from your heart and not trying to butter us up.

2. Be honest and put words into actions. Liars are a no no.

3. Dont have to spend much $ but surprising us with simple gifts occasionally will give you + points.

4. Treat us nicely instead of taking us for granted. Girls are meant to be cherished!

5. Spending quality time with us.

6. Be faithful, dont have a change of heart.

7. Encourage us and give us support in what we do.

8. Being true to yourself and not try to act like someone you arent.

9. Being a gentleman. It's basic mannerism

10. Change when we tell you what we're not happy with you about.

True?

Skies are dark it's time for rain

I'm feeling very bad about forgetting to add Audz part of the slides into our FAOM presentation that day.. I'm sorry Audz, if you ever do read my blog. ): I'm really really sorry.

***
I'm feeling pretty much fucked up now, with no apparent reason.

I think I'm so hard to please, and I hate how easily I am annoyed. But certain issues really make me super irritable. And I always try to calm myself down. But sometimes I don't think what I wanted is too much to ask for.

Why do people always see the bad in others more obviously than they see the good? I hate it when I do that. When there're so much negativity in me I feel like giving up on the world.

I need to see the good. I need to remember the good. I need to focus on the good.
And stop being a bitch.

I am so fucking hard to please, even I can't stand myself. _l_

And we're closer, closer to the end

I swear my hair's growing at the fucking speed of 1cm/year. Even my mum thinks so!!! Am thinking of going for extensions HEHE Yay or nay?

Anyway, FAOM paper sucked balls, thank goodness MR was okay. Quite easy in fact.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAMN HOLIDAYS!

I have it all planned out. In the holidays I will:

1. Catch up with all my friends. ALL. Hon, Eugene, Cherlyn, Mei Yuan....................... and whoever whom I've been not catching up with for 9374892737 years.

2. Go out with my girlies. Hopefully my NUSKIA will be free. HAHA.

3. Taipei trip???? I HOPE IT'S STILL ON!!

4. Go on dates with baby. I realised we haven't exactly gone out on dates ever since.................. ever since.. school started?

5. Work and earn money. I am broke. Like a pauper. ):

LOL.
1 week plus to go!!! Gambatte!

FAOM suck balls

FAOM End Sem Test tomorrow and I haven't started. I hate FAOM................. What kind of subject tests you on your report!?!??!

Seriously WTF.

Presentations are all almost over.. TWO MORE WEEKS AND ONE BLOODY MBS PAPER AND I'LL HAVE TWO MONTHS OF FREEDOM!

Go go go!