MY HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!
I can't wait to catch up with friends. I feel very lost without them. It's scary how easy it is to drift apart. ): When it takes months and years to build a friendship up.
And I'm feeling down, confused, mixed up, a stir of shite emotions again. I can barely understand myself. Sometimes I think I'm to Gemini for my own good. I have too many alter-egos, too many different personalities, too many different... me-s.
One major part of me feels so contented, like I cannot ask for more. Another part of me feels so disorientated, so lost. I'm in doubt. Whenever it comes to relationships, I have no control over anything and it scares me. Not knowing what the future may bring, not knowing where this is going to go. I don't like such uncertainties. Heck, I've been living with such uncertainties and insecurities for God knows how long, I hate it.
Aah, the endless rants. Again. Pardon me, I'm pretty sure I'll be awake tomorrow with whole new emotions.
I need to learn to trust myself.
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