One day

One day I'm probably gonna lose you and not get you back ever

I hate that I always take you for granted
I hate that I'm always losing my temper at you
I hate that I have the littlest patience when I'm with you
I hate that I seem to always expect more from you

One day, one day I'm gonna lose you. And I'll probably hate myself for not holding on. For not treating you better.

I don't know why I'm like that. I hate the fact that I still find it difficult to trust myself or trust love. I hate the fact that I seem to be putting in so little in this relationship. I hate myself. For the doubts, for the insecurities, for the endless, unreasonable tantrums that I always throw.

I have big trust issues with myself. And I have to deal with them before I regret it. Before One Day comes.

I'm sorry, Cow.