A year

Today, is my ah ma's death anniversary.

It's been one year. Time really flies, no?

Deaths...... are always so hard to deal with. No matter how long time passed, the memories always remain. It's like they were never gone..

I remember the last time I saw my ah ma before she was admitted into TTSH was at her home. And I told her, "Ah ma, yao zhao gu zi ji ok?"

I......... miss my ah ma. ): I remember how she always tuck me and my younger cousin to bed whenever I stayed over. How she told us stories about the war, how she lost her siblings..

I remember how she always bring me and my cousin to the playground.. Sit there and chat with the neighbours.

I guess... it was just time for her to rest. Afterall, she had been working so hard for her whole life..

I miss you, Ah ma. ):


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I'm feeling really down now. :\

My emotions are so messed up, my thoughts running crazy.

I was right. All relationships do is to screw friendships up.

I need to be alone. Need.