Like a storybook

Sometimes I think that I'm too good at hiding my emotions, too good at putting on a facade.. to a point where I feel numb and emotionless, like those feelings I have are never there.

I..... have been avoiding a whole load of emotions and thoughts in me, closed them up like another chapter in my life and have been refusing to revisit those thoughts.. I did, though. I just did. And again all I could think of was..

"I'm sorry."

Cos I really am. If I had a choice I wouldn't want to do what I did but I had to cos I've changed. My feelings had changed. I know, what a bitch.

I don't know what triggered this but all of a sudden the guilt came crashing. :\

Gomenasai...