Never Again

"Maybe it doesn't really matter if you wear your heart on your sleeve or if you guard it with all your might because in the end, everyone's gonna get hurt. "

- via runawaytrain.tumblr

I think I really cannot gamble during CNY. Gamble 10 times lose 9 times! LOL. I've lost over $50 on ban luck already lor! Must try mahjong next time.. I haven't played MJ this whole CNY! Can you believe it! ):

Anyway thank goodness other than my major FML shit that I spilled out when I was tipsy, I didn't say anything else........ I hope Eugene isn't lying to me lah Hahahaha.

Don't understand why I had to bring that up of all things. It's like ancient please! Fucking 5 years ago?!? Chyeah. Maybe cos........ oh well. Never mind. I have to stop drinking like that anymore. Otherwise I'm gonna just die. HAHA!

Met my girlies yesterday! (: So happy happy but I realise we never take photos ): HAHA I think cos Vic wasn't there lah ah.. Can't wait for Yaya's birthday! (;

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This time, I mean it. It's so stupid to be sad over someone who doesn't gives a shit. WHAT FOR? I'm gonna switch off my heart even if it kills me. I'm not gonna initiate any form of communication, even if it kills me. I'm gonna give this shit up, EVEN IF IT KILLS ME.

I can't stand my stupid self. I knew I knew I knew.......... But I just won't fucking listen, just won't be smarter lor. This time, MIND OVER HEART. For real.

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