Rollercoaster ride

Celebrated Yaya's birthday last Sat!

Went to Cash Studio at Cuscaden! Had so much fun AND THERE'S BAD ROMANCE ALREADY! Hahaha I swear I'm gonna annoy my sis with that song everytime I go KTV with her hehe!

I love my girlies so so much (:

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I feel like I'm on a emotional rollercoaster ride where I go so up high then plunge down, but there's no rush of adrenaline, no feel of excitement, just plain sadness and confusion when I hit rock bottom.

Isn't it quite obvious how I feel about you? Do you need me to say it out, like word-for-word?

Do you still feel the same way 3 months ago?

If yes, why aren't you doing anything.... Why have you become so distant?
If no, then why say those things, why ask those things?

): I'm so confused by your actions I can't figure anything out... I still refuse to believe you are what others think you are. I think you are not, and isn't that all that matters?

I'm willing to put my fears aside (You don't know how much it takes for me to do this), but seriously........ you're making me feel like it's not worth it.

I don't know, maybe I'm too good at hiding my emotions you can't sense how I feel about you..... but wahlao eh....... am I supposed to..... confess????? Hahaha that's so fucking scary and I need a whole lot of courage which I don't have. And never will have.

Sorry for the endless rant. I just need to voice out my confusion. ):

I'll give myself........... till the next time I see _. If I don't then.... till I stop feeling how I'm feeling about _.

Sigh so emo now sianz ttm. BYE!