Emo wreck

Hi. I got high again on Wed night.

Thank goodness Ian and Val were there to stop me from doing anything I'll regret.

I tried, I took the initiative to talk to _ online yesterday but all I got was a one word reply.

I'm feeling damn tired, damn jaded about this whole thing already. Hell, it seems to me like it's one sided anyway. I'm just another girl, lor. Since he has so many others...... right.

Fuck lah, I wish I wasn't so gullible. I wish I can stop believing. Why can't I see what others see. Why do I believe that he's not what others think he is.

It's so fucking like de javu. And I should stop it. Because I don't think I can survive another 3 years trying to get over someone. Again.

I am damn sad. Miserable. Emo. Beyond words.

And feeling hungover on top of this emotional shit is not helping either. I feel like puking, my head is pounding.. I can't do anything.. and I'm supposed to do my work.

I seriously feel like just sitting down and bursting into tears.



Cos I'm a fucking emo wreck.

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