It's like you coming back

I had the strangest, weirdest, REAL-est dream...... or nightmare, I would call it a nightmare, ever.

It's been like an hour plus since I woke up and I still can remember the details................ I was back at KCP for some event.. with Val and Mal. And then we saw _. With his gf. I stared and stared and stared cos well, of cos you will stare at someone whom you've been glad not meeting into but somehow kinda longing to meet for 5 years. But he didn't see us/me.

Then we left, I was feeling all weird.. And somehow I accidentally pressed the call button on my phone, dialing _'s number. (Seriously if this happens in real life I'd fucking jump down a building!) And and I was frantically hanging up but somehow the button didn't work and............ he picked up.

"Hello G? So late still haven't sleep ah? I saw you just now................."

Fucking scary to the max that I can still hear his voice and................ OMG. It seriously felt so real....

Mad lah mad I think I'm going crazy.................. ):

And.... just when I was so sure that I'd give in and listen to my heart, my good friend has to tell me that he too, is disapproving. And I'm getting all confused again...

My mind knows I shouldn't
My heart doesn't want to listen

Is there a way to make my mind > heart?

Ahhhh I'm feeling so screwed up. I just keep thinking and thinking and thinking but I get no answers. Aiyah I think it doesn't matter lah I'm not even doing anything about it.

JUST FORGET IT AND STOP THINKING LAH DINE!