Angels cry

I can't get to sleep. ):

Just thought of what my cousin and I were talking about, about how I'm someone who is very easy to break up with.

Very true. If I were the one who initiated the break up, no amount of asking for second chances would work..

And if the guy were to break up with me, I would not cry, beg and pester him not to, or to give me another chance. Even if I really really like him, even if I really really didn't want the relationship to end. Weird huh?

But to me, it's really simple. When a break up occurs, it means that the relationship is broken.. The trust, the feelings, the love, is all bruised or tattered in a way. So what for try to mend things?

Even if there is a "patch back", there will always be a scar. And in time to come, the problems which caused the break up to occur will likely happen again.

Some people may say, "but I didn't mean it when I say let's break up!"

I always believe that at no point in a relationship should you raise the issue of breaking up unless you mean it. It should never be said in a fit of anger, neither should you say it just in the name of fun. No matter how bad the quarrels get, there are ways to solve it without breaking up.

I really don't understand how some couples around me can break and patch and break and patch like 10 times.

Some may think that I'll regret not holding on even though I really still like the guy (figuratively, of course, there's no guy now). But so what if I hold on? So what if he gives me another chance? There's no point in holding on to someone whose heart isn't with you.

Eventually, I'll just get tired of always holding on to him, always worrying about him leaving me again, always being the one giving in cos I'm afraid of losing him.... And neither of us would be happy.

No point, right?

But then again, I haven't had much experience in this love crap so I may just be talking shit. Who knows?