Bruised not shattered

Past few days had me hating myself for being so gullible and wondering why I'm like that.


I'm overly-gullible to the extent that I feel very very very dumb. It happened not once, not twice.

I see myself being taken in by sweet nothings.
I see myself believing so much that someone is different.
I see myself thinking that someone is not what others perceive him to be.

I'm always believing that there's good in people, no matter how bad they seem to the world.

In short, I'm just fucking stupid and naive lah.

I must start learning that some guys are plain jerks, and whatever nice-ness that eludes from them are just a ploy to get you.

THERE IS EVIL IN THIS WORLD, DAMN IT. NOT EVERYONE HAS EVEN A BIT OF GOODNESS IN THEM!

Anyhow, I'm glad.. this time, I just have to face my stupidity, and not heal a broken shattered heart like what happened before.

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SCHOOL'S IN, FO'REAL. No more skipping of lectures and the tutorials have started.

I'M A FREAKING YEAR 3 STUDENT! Very stressed to accept that fact. ); I can foresee the busy-ness and hardcore chionging of projects in the months to come.

Sigh. Need to get this education shit over and done with. Anyway I've decided to apply of OSIP (Overseas Student Internship Programme) just for fun, because I don't think I can get in. I don't even know the criteria and all lah..

Just feel a need to explore the world a little more.

Ok bye, lecture at 11 tomorrow! I must stop being late! Hahahha (;