Anti-social

Is it too much to expect someone to keep to his/her words?
Am I silly to be affected by something which I no longer have control over?

It's not anger, it's just disappointment. I thought, I expected. Well I thought wrong, I expected wrong.

I really wish I can not care. But it annoys me in one way or another. It's making things so much more awkward and difficult than it already is.

I'm just pro at putting a "I don't give a fucking shit" facade, as usual.

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Today I was told I'm anti-social. ): I know I am..

I feel like I've forgotten how to make new friends. Having someone to rely on in the past semesters certainly lowered my social skills drastically.

Besides, I find it so hard to open up to people around me. The years of keeping emotions to myself for the fear of people knowing too much. Well, when people know too much about you they have the ability to tear you apart.

I'm afraid to get close to people whom I don't know well enough.

Cautious. Ah, feels like I'm back to becoming that hermit.

Or have I always been a hermit? ):