Yet again

I'm not as strong as I thought I would be, and I hate my weakness so.

Seems as though all the effort I've put it in the past months vanish within a night. Perhaps it was a mistake to go, but....... I guess it was the heart that made the decision.

Yet again, the mind has lost the battle against the heart. But fight on, fight on I will. I see no end in this.

I've been so lost on this journey I have no idea how I feel anymore.