Flashbacks

Being home alone really makes my mind wander like fuck. And as usual, reminisce like I always do.

I read through some stuff and it just got me thinking.. As much as I know it's better to not lead people on, I guess I really was giving too much fucking attitude. And I really wanna apologise for that. I'm sorry ):

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So...... you know what I'm really afraid of?

I'm afraid that even after this 2.5 months here, I'd not be able to forget what happened. That it'll always be hurting like it's hurting now. That the scene will always be replaying in my head. That each time I see your name my heart will always ache. That I'll still be able to come up with some fucking dumbass excuses for my stubbornness.

I'm afraid, that I'm never gonna be strong enough to get over this.

真的够了，能不能让心别再疼了...