It's been quite a long time since I updated. Been through a couple of things over the past few weeks...
Losing someone to death is never easy. I miss Ah gong, but I'm sure he's in a better place where Ah ma can take care of him, where both of them can live happily ever after.
On a side note, don't you think it's quite... silly to have a 3 or 5 days funeral?
You got to go through grief at the hospital where the doctors announce that they've tried their best.
And then throughout the 3 to 5 days at the funeral you learn to cope with your grief. You speak to your family and friends as per normal. You learn to accept the fact that your loved one is gone.
Yet on the last day, during the cremation, you are once again forced to face the grief of losing your loved one forever.
Something that went through my mind during the funeral.
And I'm so glad for you who was there for me, making sure I'm fine and coming all the way down just to meet me for an hour or two.
Recently I've been feeling so happy and blessed. Something I haven't felt in a long while. Or maybe even something I haven't felt before cos this time it feels so special. Yet the paranoia in me fears that one day I'll wake up to find everything gone.
My insecurity gets the better of me, every single time. ):
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