Intricate thoughts: Why I hate being tall

I'm not sure if I've blogged about this before, well, I probably have ranted on this topic over a million times throughout the years. If you know me personally (well I think most of you do), you'd know that I'll do anything, ANYTHING to lose a few cms.

I have no idea how I got to my height. I vaguely remember being average like everyone else during my lower primary days. And then all of a sudden I shot to 168cm? When I was in primary 6. Which depressed me a lot because I felt like a giant, towering over even the guys.

When I got to secondary school, every time we had to take our height and weight, I would pray not to hit 170cm. But I did.... eventually. I think when I was Sec 2? And in fact I thought I stopped growing when I hit 172cm during my Sec 4/JC days, but quite recently some time back, I took my height at a polyclinic and realised that I'm now 173cm. :(

So yes, why the sad face? I know most people would looooooove being tall. But meh, not me. I'd rather be average. Here are some reasons why I hate being tall:

1) I tower over my friends and I feel extremely insecure because I think I look huge.
When I was in secondary school I was super conscious about my weight because all my friends were sub-50kgs but I was over 50kg. I didn't take into consideration my height because, well, because everyone was pretty much just comparing weights?

2) I think I look intimidating to a lot of people because of my height.
Though I'm no where near intimidating. I'm as harmless as.... oh well I don't know what but I definitely won't bite.

3) Because I think that most guys prefer petite girls.
I don't know how true this is but if I were guy I would definitely prefer my gf to be someone small? I just think petite girls give off that vulnerable vibe that most guys will go gaga over. I generally give off the vibe that I'm pretty much strong enough to handle whatever comes in my way. Even if it's a wolf or something. Idk? Haaaaaaaaa.

4) On the topic of guys, because sadly the guys in Singapore are not very tall.
I'm not being judgmental but it's a fact! I read from this site that the average height of a Singaporean male is 170.6cm. Hello that's like shorter than me???? I always thought the average height of a Singaporean male would be 175cm. I personally don't really care about the height of my bf but I feel it's the guys that mind? *hor baby?* I guess it's just something about their male ego or, something. Idk.

My last and most important reason....

5) BECAUSE I CAN'T FUCKING WEAR PRETTY HEELS (WITHOUT LOOKING LIKE A TRANNY)!!!

I think it's probably just me, being super self-conscious, but I feel like a tranny each time I wear heels, as much as I love them. I think I just have to get used to the idea of being super tall. This is why I hate my height the most because there are so many fucking gorgeous heels out there which I cannot bring myself to wear out. :(

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So yes, if ever you feel sad about being short, I hope this post will cheer you up. Just remember this - you have the choice and option to be taller by wearing pretty heels. I, on the other hand, cannot chop off my legs to become shorter. :( Be thankful for your height!

Of course it isn't always so bad being tall. There are some perks too!

Like... being easy to spot in a crowd? Your friends can see you for sure.
At a concert? You can piss people behind you off by standing up and shouting to beat the people in front of you.
People kinda remember you because your height makes an impression (not sure if this is good or bad).
You can put on some weight and still not look as fat. You'll look big but not fat fat.

And my most favourite thing about my height.......

Everytime I help my mom with the laundry I do not need to use