Take me back to the start

Final two attempts, hopefully I can finally get an answer by the end of next week. Crossing my fingers to get what I want, but if not, I hope my alternative plan will work out as well. I will make sure that my life is back on track as soon as possible.

I'm feeling hopeful and energetic, can't wait to get things started. :) Mentally though, I mean.

Physically I'm still a weak sauce with zero appetite after blasted by a high fever a few days back. Plus I automatically wake up after sleeping for 7 hours, making me very tired. No more sleeping in for me. My body is screwed up and I don't know how to fix it. I lost 5kgs over the span of weeks.

Got myself excited for a revamp and getting it running again. I quite like working around typography and pretty things. This time round, I am depending on myself and no one else because I have learnt. Sometimes or maybe even most of the time, disappointment hurts more than anger.

When you are nice, people take advantage of that. It really is time to stand up for myself and stop letting people step all over me just because I'm nice to them. There has to be a line between being nice and losing out. No one's gonna look out for you even if you look out for others. Even those you consider friends. Such is life. Another lesson learnt.

"Nobody said it was easy, 

It's such a shame for us to part. 

Nobody said it was easy, 

No one ever said it would be this hard. 

Oh take me back to the start."

#Nowplaying.