It's like an endless fight I never seem to win

BA and Marketing screwed big time. I have no motivation to study, neither do I have the mood.

When there's too many things running in my head. I can't figure them all. It's me against fear. Me against past experiences. Heart against mind.

Sometimes I wish I were Muffin. Then all I do is eat, bark, sleep and wake up with my tongue stuck out like an idiot (above pic).

I can't handle it.................... ):

Hate my thinking too much. I really do.
Why can't I be like others. Why must I worry so much.

I'm such a sucker.