Reminisce

So went back to KCP with Mel and Val to visit the teachers as well as catch up with ex-classmates! Saw loads of people whom I miss a lot like BRENT! OMG! :D

Mrs Gan was hyperrrr lah! As usual.. Lol. Took photos with her and Ms Teo who just gave birth to a baby boy not long ago! Her son damn cute lah! (: And oh, saw Ms Oon! Talked to her and stuff.. Still the same, really.. They haven't changed much, KCP haven't changed much.. Still as warm and homey as always. (: But I felt damn old lah, especially when I look at the students.. Like omgggg.

Lunched with the 4Peace guys- Wene, Xueyang, Justin, Joshua, together with Ian and Francis after a super long wait cos J8 was full of hungry students and no place to eat. It feels good to be meeting your ex-classmates once in a while :D

I love KCP. Like rocks please.

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Perhaps it's the nostalgia.. Perhaps it's just that I haven't been to that Bishan area for long.. The route from school back to J8, was reminiscing a lot.. How I used to be all the way from when KCP first moved to Bishan from Rangoon till graduation...

Read my archives all the way from when I started blogging to the posts which I am so ever familiar with cos of the constant urge to think of the past.........

Just feel really.... emotional at this point. How naive I used to be.. How liking someone seems to be so much easier then. Without the experience of hurt. How twit-y I used to blog, how childish my thoughts used to be.. How everything seemed so easy, and slowly....... how things start to complicate as I grew up.. How much shit I got into.... How bad I felt.. How everything seriously sucked, how I learnt to pick myself up.......

Really. I feel like I've grown much mature than before.. And how we all grew up. I guess without those experiences we'll all still be like immature kids, probably rebelling and not knowing how to think, no? Oh well.

Shall just end here. This really should be my last time reminiscing.

Really............. gone?

这不是鸵鸟的心态
只是我还无法释怀
我还爱你再不会说出来

只能把爱 藏在回忆深海
不想面对的事 学着习惯成自然
我会把爱 隐藏到谁都看不出来
它还在继续 却与你无关

只能让爱 离开回忆深海
不想面对的事 只能学着习惯成自然
对你的爱 沉默了 我却还在依赖
你要的幸福 却与我无关

Gone.
Good.


Empty,
Bad.

Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang

I never thought I would ever say this in the past..........

but Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang is really quite nice.... Yet.. just as I am starting to like them more.............

........tomorrow will be the final, final graduating episode for the first batch of didi..

*BAWLS*

Wah really damn sad can!!! I can't believe I actually teared lah.... that time when they had to exchange gifts, and just now when Ao Quan was presented the graduating cert.......

):):): See! Cable made me like Bang Bang Tang!

Haizzzz... The new batch don't look nice, BUT I REALLY HOPE MY XIAO LE WILL REMAIN IN MFBBT!!!

Who is Xiao Le??

小樂！！！Damn cute lah! And his dance with......

鲔鱼 was damn nice!!! I think Wei Yu's quite good looking too... but Xiao Le!! OMG, but he's younger than me luh... like 1991. ): And he has a girlfriend... Hahahahhaha whatever lah.. I just think he is cute and I keep watching out for him whenever I watch 模范棒棒堂！

Li Quan also quite cute Wahahaha Spot Xiao Le in the pic OMG! Hahahahahha shit I'm mad.

And and and, I like the drummer from Dong Cheng Wei! But I don't know his name though.. LOL.

HIM! Shuai!

Of course, Ya Lun is still Number 1 lah though I haven't seen him on TV or otherwise for like 987987498172983798 years. But nehmind! End of year coming! THEIR CONCERT WOOHOO!

Wo de AI AI~

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Okay as you can see I'm much better already but now my sis is having a headache and keeps puking :O I think I passed whatever virus to her Whoops sorry sis.

Gonna drink yummy Campbell's soup which mummy cooked for me now <3!~

I hate headaches but they love me

End sem tests are over but I am in no mood to rejoice. At least for now lah.... feel like shit.

After econs paper at like 9plus PM, I had a fucking headache, one of those killer kinds that I always have................ I thought after sleeping everything will be okay cos I HAVEN'T STUDIED FOR BA THEN. Nevermind, woke up yesterday, bloody headache not gone.

I thought cos I didn't eat anything so I ate maggi mee..... Big mistake, felt damn nauseous after that ): Sis bought dinner home for me, I ate a few mouths and seriously felt like puking. Bloody headache STILL not gone.

Best part, while watching Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang, I freaking puked for three consecutive commercial breaks. Fuck I hate puking okay.... like I could literally feel my stomach churning and trying to get rid of every single speck of food inside. ):

Went ahead with BA test today despite not studying........ All I did was to read through the last few chapters. SIGH. Forget it, it's over, and I don't blame myself cos I was bloody sick.

And, bloody headache is still not gone. _l_

Today is the last episode of Mo Fan Bang Bang Tang with the usual people ): I will blog more about XIAOLE (OMG HE IS DAMN CUTE AND HIS DANCING IS DAMN GOOD BUT ALAS! HE IS YOUNGER THAN ME LOL) when I'm feeling better.. like better. Than now at least.

edit.

VAL LOOK AT WHAT I SAW AT COLD STORAGE THE OTHER DAYYYY! LOL.
Yes, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AH BENG FRIEND MEIYUAN (:

Jiro^^

It's Da Dong's birthday :D Happy birthdayyyyyyyyyeeeee!
27 years old already! OMG ahahahah

Ok bye I love feilunhai woo hoo!

PS. OB SUCK BIG TIME.


I HAVE GIVEN UP HOPE ON OB. ):

What makes you cry?

Are you someone who cries easily? I don't know, recently I can't help but wonder.. Why do some people cry so easily, yet others never shed a tear?

Haiya now Yuan Liang Wo is playing on the radio and I feel very sadddddddddddddddddd ): Okay never mind, back to crying.

I'm someone who seldom cry in front of others. Really seldom. Like in the past five years (since Sec One), I've only cried like.... 5 times in front of others! Okay lah, six if you count the recent one when I cried while watching Ten Promises.

1st was when (haahahha Val I don't know if you remember this but it's such a classic! Hahahahhaha) this particular senior from my sec school made Val cry like really badly during a Sec One orientation when we were Peer Support Leaders.

Cos Val suddenly hugged me in the girls' toilet at the old KCPSS in Rangoon second floor beside the hall and started sobbing! I can remember okay! Hahahahha That I cried cos I was super angry with that bastard to the extent that I wanted to go slap him. See! Sec Two only ah lian siollll. LOL. Of cos I didn't lah, he was much taller than me albeit skinnier Muahahahahha

2nd time was when...... I was super pissed with some air rifle seniors. I always cry when I'm angry can. So annoyingly ANNOYING.

3rd time was............... OH! When KCB got a Bronze ): Can't help it lah, disappointment plus everyone else around me was crying.

4th was the period before O Levels when Muffin fell sick and had to stay at the Vet's. Me and my sis cried all the way from Katong back to home in the taxi. Like sobbing. Up to our front step and scared the hell out of my mum to see her both daughters cry like babies.

5th was when I got my O Level results. Damn paiseh please. Cried in front of the whole cohort. Or at least those who were around me. Ahhhhhh embarrassing!

Yep. Of cos there were many other times I cried when I'm alone lah.......... like when I didn't make it through Promos and ran to the toilet cos I didn't want anyone to see me cry. And of course............. you know.


So, what will you do when you see someone you know cry? I panic okay. I really hate to see people cry. If they are very close to me like Val Mal or Yaya or Mel, I will hug them and let them sob.

But..... I really won't know what to do when people whom I know but are not very close to cry. I will just walk away or look at them. I won't console because some girls howl even more when you start consoling them and it freaks me out quite a lot.

Damn I feel so man. Like how guys are scared of girls crying. I am too!


Ok super random right this topic but yaaaaa I just felt like blogging and thinking of the past.. Damn funny please especially the lower sec school days! So silly!

Come to think of it, I've gotten a 180degrees change since I was young. Cos then I cried over the littlest things. Until my relatives call me tissue paper. LOL.

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I played mahjong and won $18 just now.
I haven't started studying.


I'm feeling oajsdklfjaljklj now over no apparent reason. :\
I hate it when this happens.

I miss them a lot cannnnnnnnnnnnn Oh my FEILUNHAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII~

K whatever, I wanted to do those quiz thingy cos i haven't done one in the longest time but I can't seem to find a nice one to do..... I think they are all dying out.

Alright tomorrow I MUST STUDY.

STOP PROCRASTINATING.

Study week?

I have no motivation to study ): yet.

Haiyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I miss Vallie Val. ):

Okay okay.

Some things are amusing me quite a lot. Hahahhaha I can't help but wonder how someone can be like that. Like that lor, you know. Like that.

Hahahahha okay shut up shan't be a bullyyyyy.

But really very funny lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. LOL.

Okay, I have no idea what to blog about. I just feel like typing. Hahhahaa

Neopets keyquest is so fun and neopets is so fun! Muahhahahha I feel like a kid. But whatever........................

Okay back to that amusing thing.






I pei fu that determination and optimism. A lot. LOL.

Ok, now I will shut up.

Bye!

PS. Vallie Val Val, we go back KCP eat cai fan cannnnn cannnn cannnnnnnn! Is your prelims overrrr yetttttttttttttt????

kacheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek (:

And back, back to where we were at

:D So yes, class (? more like just the three of us) piercing today! Adriel, Audrey and moi pierced our tragus and I pierced my helix (is it? I don't understand why there are so many names when they are, really, just parts of your ear -.-) as well.

I am damn happy cos when I reached home I was like,

"Mummy............... I pierce my ear today" And all mummy said was "A lot of money ah, pierce."


Full stop. Period. OMG! :D She didn't even see where I pierce :O Yayness. (:

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Ogay Comm skills formal presentation peeeeektures! (:

A more formal photo of 1B12! Ownzxs like totally! :D

Damn funny the guys pushed the girls in front!

Look at Jingzhe's ass. Tak perlu siol. Otherwise the four of us with Brian's extra also tak perlu face will own! Hahahaha

Nurulhuda Bte Mohamed Ayub. Moi good nose picking friend! Hahahahahaha

All trying to act like spastic Huda!

Group shots!!

Adriel siollllllllllll! Damn funny his face!

This is Chin Kiat a.k.a. Kacheeeeeeeeeeek, happy cat, meow whatever! But look! there's someone behind. So we tried once more.
This time can see ass-showing Jingzhe's smiling face! Hahahahahahha so forget it lahhhhzxs.
We ownxzs! (:

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Binggo (Our CSA tutor) and Fredrick's birthday celebration! :D

Class shots!!! Formal and informal as well :D

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I think 1B12 rocks, like seriously (: gooooooooooooood luck for end-sem tests people! ((:

Which reminds me,


I'VE GOT TO START CHIONGING CSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Exams is on Saturdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! ZOMGGG!

It's taking control

1. I hate the Olympics cos Channel U stopped playing the repeat of Yu Le Bai Fen Bai because of it. Annoyingggggzxs.

2. All presentations are finally over and done. Yay

3. Which means that it's time for exams

4. Which means I have to start studying

5. That's not good.

Pics of the formal presentation up soon I guess? If I feel like it. Right now I'm feeling like shitxzz.

What a small world

It's really a small world! Hahaha I actually know (not personally!) of someone whom Audrey knows! OMG damn coincidental! Hahahahahaha

I realised I haven't posted any pic of my classmates yet! So I shall today! :D

This is Brian then, with his ahbeng hair.

This is Brian now. Still look beng right. I swear it's his face, not his hair. Hahahahahhaha!

This is a close up of Adriel!


This is Adriel, acting cute. Hahahahahaha! Always step matrep siol. His favourite line is "Apa kau nak?!" Which means, WHATDOYOUWANT (in Dennis Chiang's tone Hahahahahha)!

This is Audrey (or half of her face). She has green eyes but her email is audrey blueeyes something. Hahahahaha

This is Audrey, drinking, I don't know what. Oh, I'm her all-time teeth inspector! Cos she likes to ask me if she has anything stuck in her teeth. Hahahahaha :D
This is HUDA! The nose digger. Seriously, she leaves her trace of nose shit wherever she feels like it. So beware of wherever you sit in TP. LOL!

This is HUDA (again!) with Li Juan! Huda is like that half the time. Or should I say all. She is spastic like that. She goes around singing, NI SHI HAO WA WA~ Li Juan is, gangster siol. Hahahaha she's a repeater like ____.! LOL

They ownzxs like don't know what, and they're like, the best! :D

This is what Kacheeeeeek (must say the "cheeek" as high as you can! He is Chin Kiat lahhh or JUSTIN HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA) drew on my hand today. Until now still cannot rub off. But he's arm is definitely more vandalised than mine. Muahahahahha

So yes, I've got cool friends YozzZ. And a cool class YoOoZ and I don't wish to change class next year ): Nevermind will worry about it when it gets closer.

Got all my formal wear settled today!!! Gonna get heels tomorrow! Oh, the thought of it. Heels are either wayyyy to high or simply ugly for meh.. Or they don't have my size cos moi have beeeg feeet. ):

Gah, very long, very wordy, very picture-y but I'm gonna end with a pic of my lovely darling pigpig fatfat muffmuff MUFFIN! :D

She loves to eat bread and rice and once ate cockroach legs. She loves protecting cockroaches and loathes the insecticide cos it kills her friends. She hates plastic bags, newspapers, water and running kids (note: MY NEIGHBOURS -.-) She loves to bully me, and bite my hand/ankle to play. She's retarded cos she's 5 yet still behaves like a puppy :O But I still love her much much! :D

PS. Nuffnang is cool cos I can see who searched what which led to my blog and one of it was "jasthm muffin" which freaks me pretty much cos it must be someone who knows me. Scary! The second search is hilarious it's slanted molar Hahahahhahahahahahahah

Break free from all your lies

I think I'm so naive at times. I'm one of those who believes 人之初,性本善. And I used to think that in future, if I'm faced with any danger *choy*, I will talk to the assailant patiently like I don't know, try to hit some sense and stir his conscience.

I think I'll end up dying though. I don't know, but I really don't believe that anyone is born evil. There must be certain reasons behind someone who is evil. Oh well.

I guess.. I guess that's why it took me so long to realise that, some guys, are truly, truly bastards. And no matter how many reasons I try to find, how many excuses I come up with, he was just not the person I thought he would be. He's not nice, he's not caring, he's not different. Never was. In fact, he was far from that.

So yes. I feel... less gullible now. (:

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dine: why cos you miss me right
dine: hahahha

Tic-Tac-Joe: yeah, of course i do.
Tic-Tac-Joe: you and hammy. but i saw hammy the other day already.

dine: hahahhaa
dine: awww im so honoured!
dine: you place me beside hammy!
dine: hahaha

Tic-Tac-Joe: oh, ya.
Tic-Tac-Joe: now that you point it out, you should.
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I am, Eiji, I AM! Very honoured if you know how crazy Eiji is over Hammy! I miss you band-ers so much!

Always will be my <3!!

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Okay, have been chionging Econs like mad and I'm damn tired but it's still not done so I'm so dead.

My laptop damn hot leh. Anyone knows where to get some cooler or whatsoever? It's really very hot! :\

edit. I just found out something. And it scares me to know that my intuition, sixth sense, was right, is right. Like spot on. Nothing major. Just freaked me out a little.

If my intuition is spot on all this while, then maybe, back then, I shouldn't have feared so much. Shouldn't have....... stubbornly looked for excuses for myself not to move on.

Not meant to be. /edit.