Bored.

I'm bored. I'm more than bored.

I'm effing bored. B O R E D.

I ran out of blogs to read. I need some new and interesting blogs man.. I always read the same old ones and most of them have lives so they do not update like everyday. Very much unlike me.

Gaaaawwwwwwwdddddddd.

My life is so effing boring. Holidays are so effing boring. I'm even missing school. (I probably will regret saying that when school starts.)

I'm such a boring person! I spend my holidays sleeping while most people choose to go out, party or something.

Me?

Nope, I am too lazy to get my ass out of my house and would be contented with sleeping through the afternoon, waking up in the late afternoon, waste my time on FB, shopping online, SGC, neopets (don't laugh, you have to admit it's the greatest place for games :p) and probably read a book.

But I ran out of books to read. Seriously the library should let us borrow 8 books since it's our holidays. Now I'm sounding like a nerd. O.O

And a very boring one at that.

Umm.. I think I need major help in getting out of being a zai nu.

Right.

Meeting Eugene on Friday! Finally a once-in-a-year catching up. I hope he won't want me to meet him at Bishan... Though chances of that are pretty slim.

Okay, thank you for reading the boringest post in the boringest blog by the boringest bored bore ever.

Right.



Tell me again why vampires do not exist? ):

Bunny

Everything's fine now, and I hope I would never ever feel so emomemo like elmo ever again.

It was horrible. I guess I only learn when I'm on the verge of losing. Oh well.

Anyway, check this out! Someone must be stalking Xesman aka Zhong Hong. 5 hits leh omg damn stalkish! LOLLLLLLLLLLLL.

And why the hell would people google something as stupid as faom??? T.T

I reckon I would never get the photos from Ryuju's birthday party so this one pathetic one should do. ):

Can you believe it has been over 10 years since I've known the above people! :D

Ok, I'm hungry............ Off for maggi mee! Tata!

It's not always rainbows and butterflies

I dont wanna lose you
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry

That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all

It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Have been hooked on this song. It's so.... true.

I guess I'm feeling better, I hope. I forgot to blog that I have two additional Stitches to my collection. (:

Sigh. I realised I know nuts about being in a relationship. Maybe I'm not capable of loving someone. How can I when I don't even know how to deal with myself. I've came to realise how much effort is needed to keep a relationship going.

In the past I've never put in such effort. It usually ends where effort is needed. Perhaps that's why I'm feeling so lost because I'd never known how it's like to be in a relationship for more than 3 months.

Ah, I wish I would be less emo tomorrow.

Escape this town for a little while

Cos I'm still feeling down and nothing's making me feel better.

3 posts on the same date, haven't blogged so often ever since __ cos I only do this when I'm bored or when I'm upset and not in a mood to talk to anyone.

Which I haven't, the whole day. Not even to Muffin. I don't feel like socialising with anyone today, just wanna be alone.

Perhaps I'm better off being a hermit.

One day

One day I'm probably gonna lose you and not get you back ever

I hate that I always take you for granted
I hate that I'm always losing my temper at you
I hate that I have the littlest patience when I'm with you
I hate that I seem to always expect more from you

One day, one day I'm gonna lose you. And I'll probably hate myself for not holding on. For not treating you better.

I don't know why I'm like that. I hate the fact that I still find it difficult to trust myself or trust love. I hate the fact that I seem to be putting in so little in this relationship. I hate myself. For the doubts, for the insecurities, for the endless, unreasonable tantrums that I always throw.

I have big trust issues with myself. And I have to deal with them before I regret it. Before One Day comes.

I'm sorry, Cow.

It's your heart you can't trust

I seem to get especially emomemo when it's the holidays and when it's past midnight. ):

Why is it that we humans never seem to be satisfied with what we have? I really don't understand myself, like half the time. More often than not, I see myself from a third person's point of view, watching days go past and living the life I live.

I'm weird like that, really.

Haha took this photo awhile ago at Cow's place. Silly Prince just stayed at that position cos he was too afraid to move. -.-

Anyway, I caught The Ugly Truth with Cow today! It was damn funny lor should go and watch. I think that Colin guy is so damn hot!!!

It's funny how girls always dream about how perfect they want their other half-s to be. Having the checklist and all. I am so guilty of this. Look at the amount of lists I've came up with in my archives! LOL.

Oh well.

I just realised that the latest Dan Brown book is out! So slow. I want to read it very much but I saw on the forum that it is very expensive. ):


Speaking of expensive..... I am upset at myself for spending so much today ): I wish I can be more in control of my spendings because I'm usually the spend-first-regret-later kind. Which is bad. Siiiiiiiiiiiigh.

Promise myself to stop shopping online and lusting over those not-needed new clothes.

Oh yes, and not eating outside too. I must camp at home until I replenish my bank account. And in the mean time lock my IB device.

Ok, I realised I haven't taken my dinner. No wonder I'm hungry.

Off for some maggi mee!

Hateful eyebags

Just got home from JB not long ago! My sis and I spent the whole time colouring our hair and doing our nails! We didn't have time to shop at all ):

Hahaha but I love my hair colour!

(Look at my hateful eyebags. ): No, don't look at them. ): ): )

Can you see the purple highlights?? Hehehehe Ah lianz much, but me likey! And yes, I have feilunhai posters all over my room wall ^^ LOL.

And my nails with pwetty nail art! :D

Hahahaha happy much! (:

I need to start doing something about my eyebags. Panda eyes! ): Haha sucks. Need to learn to take care of my skin, complexion is getting from bad to worse, need to start................. not being so lazy. ):

I miss fat boy.

I want Fangs

OMG I AM HORRIBLE...................................................

I spent the whole time from 10plus pm till now doing what?????????





WINDOW SHOPPING ONLINE!

): Now I wish I am a rich kid with like, tens of thousands in my account. Then can go "This one nice, BUY!" for every piece that I like.

Anyway the number of blogshops in Singapore is :OOOOOOOOOOO Amazing. Hahaha Monopolistic competition to the max. LOL.

Have I ever mentioned I wish vampires exist? I would gladly be bitten by one if they do. I mean, what is there not to like about vampires?

• They have super strength
• They have keener senses
• They can sense emotions within other people
• They are charming and damn good-looking*
• They stay young forever
• They get to bite their enemies :B

The only bad thing is they can't eat solid food and have to live on blood, and can't be in sunlight (not a problem, definitely since I am living like one now).

*I am not talking about that Twilight guy I don't think he is that handsome, plus, Twilight was the horrible-st vampire movie ever. Epic of boring.

I just got the above points from all the novels that I've read.

Love vampires. :B

Kyu

Nine months and a day (:

And we are still holding on. I'm glad, really. Just so you all don't think that his face is always this spastic, I shall post a nicer pic. Hahaha

Anyway, I can't believe we haven't met for a week! ): I don't know why I was so busy last week I didn't find anytime to meet Cow. But dinner at Tian Fu steamboat today made it up to him I hope? Hahahaha

We ate like how a cow and pig would. LOL. We watched so many tables of people come and leave but we were still there eating fish paste, prawns, sliced beef, sliced pork, kangkong, golden mushroom, and what-nots. Hahahahahha

And I feel damn fat now cos even Cow said I look fatter.

*STARES AT TUMMY AND BAWLS*

I will be eating one meal a day from tomorrow onwards!

First time I holiday eat so much can...... And some more eat a lot at night cos I sleep at 5am and wake up at 3 plus everyday(night)!

):

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I baked Banana Chocolate Muffins yesterday!!! :D It was a success! Hahahah am so gonna bake more in future! Must make use of my holidays.. (:

Baking in process!

TAA DAHHHHH!!!

So proud of myself CHEH! LOLLLLLLLLLL. It was an easy recipe and baking is so fun! Haha Maybe I should set up a cafe in future if I ever have the capital! (:

Here's a pic of my limping, hopping baby before I go:

So cutteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! She's six years old = 42 dog years! and still looks like a puppy. I swear she'd retarded. Hahahahha

Alright, bye people! (: Till the next time.

Angels above

Thank God for my results. Am please with it though it has no As, though my GPA improved by a pathetic 0.01, but all the subjects that I thought I would score badly in turned out good.

I figured 0.01 is still.. well, 0.01 closer to 3.5 right? LOL.

I realised I really have been thinking too much. Thinking too much that I haven't been able to see how blessed I am. So selfish that I haven't been able to see the good of everything. Wondering too much about the uncertainties. What for, what for when all I can do is just live my life to the fullest at the moment.

No matter what happens in future I'm sure I'll be able to face it. Like how I've faced all the shite that I have overcome throughout these 19 years of my life.

知足。I've really got to work on being grateful.

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Anyway Muffin is still limping and my heart hurts whenever she limps but somehow it's a little amusing because she don't seem like she's in any pain. She just.. hops. And hops very quickly too. Like a bunny. My sis is gonna bring her to the vet on Saturday if it continues. ):

PS. Blogger is throwing its tantrums again. I can't even upload one pic of Muffin! *inserts sad and pissed face*

Phantom

I will not get pissed at his gaming.
I will not get pissed at his gaming.
I will not get pissed at his gaming.
I will not get pissed at his gaming.
I will not get pissed at his gaming.
I will not get pissed at his gaming.
I will not get pissed at his gaming.
I will not get pissed at his gaming.

But seriously what, the, fuck, is so great about gaming.

Pardon me, I'm feeling very irrationally pissed now.

FYI, my meaning of again is referring to the number of times you've been gaming this week, not today.

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Anyway, my poor Muffin baby is limping ): I have no idea why.

Having said that, she hopped on three legs just to bite my mum at the ankle for fun.
And she hopped on three legs when I was making a sandwich just because she wanted to eat some bread.
And the funniest thing, she was hopping on three legs this whole morning so I called my sis to ask her to come back.



She took half day leave and came back to see Muffin no longer hopping. Hahahahaha

It's an on-and-off thing. Hope she gets well soon.. My poor baby. ):

Stitches!

HAHAHAHA LOOK AT THE AMOUNT OF STITCH-ES BABY WON FOR ME TODAY!! :D

Plus a whole bag of mentos too! I love that game very much leh.. Am so tempted to play it 24/7! LOL. You know the the the one where you need to scoop the sweets up to push the prize into the hole? THAT ONE!!! :D

Hehe ILY COW. I have 5 Stitch-es now! 5! Go!

PS. Final Destination was a disppointment. I was laughing, LAUGHING at how they die. Which is not me because the previous 3 FD shows had me grossed out and paranoid. This is different and much lousier, but why, I can't tell exactly. The storyline same what...... but just not nice lor. ):

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I forgot to blog about... something.

Today's my favourite aunt's 8th Death Anniversary.

As I was walking towards St. Michael's, I felt the usual calmness and tranquility I always feel when I head there. I thought about all the memories I had there, though there weren't many. How my aunt used to bring me to attend mass when I was what, Primary 4? How I loved the annual family carnival day where I once won a CNY decoration thingy.. How I loved the songs and hymns they always sing during mass..

I always wonder how it will be like if my aunt were still here.. But part of me believes that she's much happier up there with the One who loves her the most. (:
It's amazingly fast.. these 8 years have been. I have grown from a primary school kid to what I am now.. And I believe that my aunt has always been watching over me throughout these years, and will always be watching over me. Like an angel.

I miss you, Auntie Millie.

NPNT

I am wanting very much to blog about Ryuju kor's AWESOME 21st birthday party at K Suites on Monday but I have yet to receive any photos! So I'll just put it off till I get at least some photos. I hope I won't forget any of its awesomeness by then. LOL.

Anyway, caught The Proposal about a week ago and I LOVED IT!!! Hahaha nice romantic love story. I love stories like that! When the couple has a bad start but ends up falling head over heels with each other! Awwww.

Final Destination tomorrow with baby! (:

Till the next time <3