Choices

Pics from Mal's birthday celebrations. (: I love.

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I'm feeling much better, no longer as messed up as I was earlier.

I was so fucking down yesterday, especially during the night when I tried to sleep. All I could think of was the scenes replaying in my head. I tell you, damn fucked up. _l_

Meet up with the girlies today was too short. ): Wished I had them all around, but at least Yaya accompanied me to fulfill my KTV craving. (:

Really have to thank the stupid boy Eugene for accompanying me to watch The Expendables (DAMN FREAKING AWESOME MOVIE GO WATCH IT!!!) yesterday as part of my "therapy" LOL, Yaya and Ryuju for accompanying to sing K today.

I really don't know what I'll end up doing without my awesome friends. I was really so so so so..... screwed up. But now I guess I've sorted out my thoughts.

Choices, decisions. They all say I have nothing to lose. I guess I'll have to get over my cowardice then. But will I.....? I shall take my time to think about it.

Yaya said that I was stupid to walk away. Maybe, but I just felt incompetent. And I don't wanna be that kinda girl who throws herself at others. I wouldn't stoop to such a level no matter how much I feel for someone. It's just not right lor.

OKAY, I shall stop being bitchy. Sometimes I amaze myself with my own emotions. They ask me why I like, I couldn't come up with an answer. Cos I'm like that.

Stupid lor?