Numbed

"You're too quiet. You should let it out, you know? Talk about it, how you're feeling. Rant." A friend of mine told me.

I tried to find words to describe how I was feeling, but I came up with nothing. I wanted to let it all out, every last bit of the ache in my heart. Let myself cry, let myself feel something again. But I couldn't. I thought I was hurt, in pain, yet I couldn't quite feel it on the surface. 

It's easy isn't it? It's easy to let yourself sink. It's easy to succumb to the hurt. It's easy to do crazy stupid things when you're hurt. Instead I stood up to it. I refused to let this hurt overwhelm me and take over my life. This is my first step to showing you that I'm still that strong girl. This time I no longer have you to pick me up when my heart is broken into pieces. Remember the very first time we had a heart-to-heart talk? I'd never forget that.

This time, I'm counting on myself.