Static

It's 3 in the morning and  have a flight tomorrow but I can't get to sleep. Is it even humanely possible to feel this much emotions and thoughts all at once? 

The memories, the longing, the fear, the hurt. The hurt. It's strange how something on an emotional level can actually feel like physical pain. Like a constant heartache. 

I guess no matter how brave a front I put up in the day, it's the nights that always get to me. When I'm faced with my self and have no where to run, that's when I break and shatter. 

Then I pick myself up again for a new day. A bottomless pit. An endless vicious cycle. 

I'm so tired.